Labels: ugly hair..sad..tots..
sobs..im sad over my hair again..im so sorry for being bimbotic..but i jus cant stop tinking abt it..
i dun noe wats wrong wif mi..i kip tinking the hairdresser cut alot alot..though its not reali alot..but it seems lyk its alot..
no one understands y i haf been so terribly protective over my hair over tis years..no one will noe how horrible i'll look wif short hair except myself..
trust mi..im not a pretty person to start wif..so i can oni reply on a good nice hair to acccentrate myself..to pull mi back to average looking..
i somehow dun lyk rebonding now..cos it looks flat..i miss the thick long hair which added the tinge of womanly look..
its a let down when things u haf been looking forward to dun meet ur expectations..cos u reali expect so much..anticipating..counting down..but when it finally comes..u realise its not wat u wan..the disappointment is jus overwhelming..
no one understands i haf alwaes alwaes tot its so sexy to haf long long hair which covers ur chest ( i noe it sounds wrong)..i jus tink its terribly sexy..something oni a female can haf..its jus so so beautiful..
i realised im so so demanding..so so stubborn..so so perfectionist..so so naggy..so so inconfident..so so terrible..and..
so so insecure..
hope another visit to e salon will save it..thank u darlings..for accompanying mi..for listening..=)
love.
---10:15 PM---
Labels: grumbles..work..thanku..
work reali spoils my mood for e dae..sometimes..i feel so helpless n stressed i feel lyk breaking down..work has made mi so temperamental..so easily frustrated..although its reali busy..but the jobscope is so much better..much easier..but somehow..im reali not happie..mayb im expecting too too much..but of cos..i met reali sweet n nice pple..but i reali dun noe y their dun come from my department..
but thank u darls..cos whenever i feel sad..ur will be there to comfort mi..to let mi noe tat it isnt tat bad afterall..C:
the oni nicest thing abt the whole job..is tat i found 3 eyecandies..enough to distract mi for awhile..C=
shopping wif zr tmr after work..n tmr is fridae!!!! yea~..happie happie..finally the end of the week..n im reali going rebonding wif zr on sae..she's highlighting..im rebonding..it has been a yr plus since i last rebonded..please let it be nice..n hl saes she wans to cut hair..mayb not there..but will def persuade her to cut..hahas..mass hair saloning..1 more dae plus to smooth straight hair..^-^
thank u for all those small small things..small small songs..it jus lifts mi up..im reali grateful for everything..* big big eh..rabbitily huG..* =D
off to bathe..its ten plus now..
love.
---9:37 PM---
Labels: grumbles..work..thanku..
work reali spoils my mood for e dae..sometimes..i feel so helpless n stressed i feel lyk breaking down..work has made mi so temperamental..so easily frustrated..although its reali busy..but the jobscope is so much better..much easier..but somehow..im reali not happie..mayb im expecting too too much..but of cos..i met reali sweet n nice pple..but i reali dun noe y their dun come from my department..
but thank u darls..cos whenever i feel sad..ur will be there to comfort mi..to let mi noe tat it isnt tat bad afterall..C:
the oni nicest thing abt the whole job..is tat i found 3 eyecandies..enough to distract mi for awhile..C=
shopping wif zr tmr after work..n tmr is fridae!!!! yea~..happie happie..finally the end of the week..n im reali going rebonding wif zr on sae..she's highlighting..im rebonding..it has been a yr plus since i last rebonded..please let it be nice..n hl saes she wans to cut hair..mayb not there..but will def persuade her to cut..hahas..mass hair saloning..1 more dae plus to smooth straight hair..^-^
thank u for all those small small things..small small songs..it jus lifts mi up..im reali grateful for everything..* big big eh..rabbitily huG..* =D
off to bathe..its ten plus now..
love.
---9:37 PM---
Labels: happie bdae..work..tots..
HAPPIE BIRTHDAE APPLE!!!! =DDDDDDDDD
im so so sorry for wishing u so late..i reali forgot todae's 11th which is ur bdae..though i haf written it 100 times over the faxes during work..im so sorry..i'll fini e necklace asap n gif it to u k..hope u'll lyk it..though i haven reali started..oni started tinking..
ur 19th now..haha..im still 18th wor..bleahs..=PP
haha..hope u enjoyed urself k..n of cos..ur wishes will come true..i so so wish u'll join mi in nus biz..if i reali take up nus biz..but i noe..its ur veri impo choice..so i wont persuade u..lets see k..hope we'll end up together..
thank u apple for the past 2 yrs..i'll nv forget the bit n pieces we had..n thank u so so much for standing by mi..for holding on to mi..finally..sweet 19..n apples will alwaes rules k..C:
i haf so so much to sae abt work..my new job at abn amro raffles quay..but..theres reali no time..somehow..though its my dream job..bank job..plus at raffles..but im not happie at all..sometimes..i feel so lonely..so distant..its lyk everyone is so distant..so out of reach..i dun feel lyk myself..although e job at hsa was harder..i was so much happier..i find myself missing them so so much..will i ever find such nice colleagues again..i hate the complicatedness of the bank industry..the masks pple wear..the ways they use to get the things they wan..the selfishness..of cos..im not saying everyone is lyk tis..but sigh..mostly are..
now..im questioning myself..if i reali wan a bank job..will i sacrifice everything else jus for a high pay..but in life..sometimes its jus so inevitable..its reali the prioritiess..im afraid to find myself staying in an unhappie job jus becos of the pay which i nid to support my family or evn myself in future..but tis is life isnt it..we'll nv get everything we wan..we jus haf to weigh..n see wats most impo..at least during tat time..
n i still feel tireds..sometimes..i reali haf no energy left to carry on..for eg..to teach tuition..or even go for work..but im still hanging on..its snapping too much of my energy..suddenly..i feel as if i haf neglected myself too much..for things such as working..it has been so long since i last pampered myself wif rests..hair treatments..or even jus sit down n type a proper entry..i jus wan a dae to sleep..wake up late..munch on something sweet..n watch tv..or jus listen to songs or read a book..it has reali been so long..im lyk losing myself..i feel ugly..un-taken care of..abandoned..i guess i reali reali nid to find time..to catch up wif myself..n u gals..i muz find e time..
tats almost all..its getting close to midnite soon..i wanna watch my vcds..feel lyk eating cotton candy suddenly..
once again..happie bdae darling..purple apple + pink apple = a big big sweet sweet colourful apple..
love.
---11:40 PM---
