in extreme pain.
hysterical
crying in silence
i cant let anyone hear
it reached its end
y am i still alive
---5:01 AM---
Labels: back to the narcisstic me
new sunglasses..i tink it takes a while to get customed to the look..haha..and and.. im act going to cut my hair tmr!!??haha..lets wait and see...hopefully no bad news tmr.......
---3:16 AM---
Labels: cut me like a knife
ethics test and individual presentation tmr.
there are so many things i wish i could say
but i cant
afraid of facing the truth perhaps
denial through and through
new blog song
you wont see me cry
all my life
---12:39 AM---
the pain is excruciating
for countless of times
i haf reflected
thought over and over again
why did it turn out tis way
the scars tat are craved on me
they pile up
they accumulate
they are irreversible
do i deserve all this pain?
no
no one does
the scars are all hidden
lyk the pain
all behind tt smile i tried so hard to fake
managed to fool the world but myself
but my heart
no one sees it lyk i do
no one feels it lyk i do
who knows?
no one knows
except me myself
its hurting too much
we know its time to let go
take me away
just take me away from this pain
---3:00 AM---
Labels: school. work. tots.
i cant believe school is starting tmr.
literally tmr.
time flies.
flies too fast.
work ended on friday
happy tt i managed to fini everything they asked me to.
completed my assignment.
cleared their 2002 and 2004 old accts.
miss the workplace
pple are nice too
hl is still working there
may go back next fri.(:
the most relevant thing i learnt in econs last sem
is opportunity cost
life is full of choices
from choosing wat to eat for dinner
to making decisions
we choose
we gain
we sacrifice
and ultimately
we are happy
when benefit > loss
but now
i haf started to not trust my ability to choose
even when is jus wat food to take
i can hesitate
and even ask for opinions
or perhaps
tis hesitation
tis dilemna im in
is due to the repeated failures i face
and i do not dare to trust myself anymore
its jus so simple
it is reli me
or is it reli tt hard
---3:47 AM---
