Labels: random
sorry hl..pls play the music an other way round..haha..
i gaf hl a warning yest on the phone..
trying his luck eh..
mani mani mths eh..
a still long nites..
now not a worst rites..
now still at the cliff..
shall pull u back..
if not..hahax..
quite afraid indeed..
things come and disappear..used to way of life..
one step at a time..
follow nature huhs..hahax..
no worries..
ur safe.
still safe.
now.
oni for now.
hahaha..
i still love u lahs hoh..
hi byebye byefren..
=dddd
random mood.
lovelove.
updated.
something wrong wif my maternal instincts nowadaes,
it makes me happy to see such adorable babies and children on the street or at the shopping malls.
=x
hl can u and ur __ give me a baby to gush at too..
=DDDD
opps.
=xx
---3:58 PM---
Labels: shopping. blog song.
finally shopped for awhile todae wif hl.
bought a dark blue dress..=DDDD
changed my blog song to touch my body by Mariah Carey..
the song is abit wrong..
but its still reli reli nice..
i tink its sweet..haha..
touch my body. sounds so wrong..haha..=x
nahs.
touch my heart.
touch me.
lovee.
updated.
was talking to hl jus now on the phone.
im scared.
---8:44 PM---
Labels: updatess
updated.
i realised i cant survive without my blog..
(:
love.
---2:45 AM---
Labels: short update
it has been quite afew daes since i felt emo..(:
feeling easily contented these daes..
small things lightens up my mood..
time is passing by too quickly..
haf been sleeping too late each nite doing nth..haha..
its time to kick tis addiction..
goodnites loves..
=DDDDD
lovelove.
---12:49 AM---
Labels: mon blues
i still lovelovelove my blog song alot.
its jus nt overly sweet
but yet sweet.
haha..(:
boo,,yj chased me away from msn when she saw me online yest..
haha..bad!
but thank u my spam princess.=D
to my crab..
im quite worried..at tis rate......................................
haha..i shd save "u". hahahaha.=xx
cant wait for tmr to be over.
presentation.
longest and hardest scirpt.
=(
lovelove.
---10:18 PM---
Labels: brief update. lovelove.
brief update..
haf been busy these few daes..
busy going out..
i tink i slept enuf.
or overdosage of sleep.
the past entire week was a happy one.
2 projects down.
one big big presentation on tue.
hmm..
watched rule no. 1.
finally.
haha..
i tot it was reli HORRIBLY SCARY.
i tink i covered my eyes for half of the show. and kept squeaking n screaming..haha..
but i lyk the plot. theres lyk a storyline.
but yet. the ending is veri sad.
=(((
would tink its quite a good show to watch.
went wif hl and her og fren.
reli superbly nice and sweet person. (:
i realised i lyk watching movies n tv nowadaes.
bad.
i haf my good dosage of fun n relaxation.
its time to get down to serious business.
and fini my big presentation soon.
came up wif tis cute sentence..wahas..
if oni the amt of time i zzZ=amt of beauty zzZ,
i will be the prettiest girl.
if oni.
haha..
ps. thank u hl for the past week.
it was love.
changed a new happier blog song.
love it to bits too.
987 jus plays the loveliest songs ever.
its cant be without u by Mary J Blige.
am seriously going to resolute to stay off from msn for a week.
will try my best.
haf a nice week ahead..
lots of loves.
---8:56 PM---
Labels: veri random.
i tink i muz be going abit mad. k. veri.
cos im talking to my doggy.
lyk mummy ai ni.
mummy mei bu mei.
hair dry bu dry.
k. conclusion.
i haf to zzZ more.
haha..
hols are for sleepimg.
loves.
---5:33 PM---
Labels: shopping and schooling wif hl.
few pple understand y i love going nus to find hl..cos hl can bring me the greatest happiness even after___________.________ made me lost all the confidence i painfully built up bit by bit these years.i kept tinking.wat was it abt me which wasnt good enough.aint i the least bit pretty.i can never understand yes.but. during the past week spent wif hl.i was reli happy.wif mani distractions and aa-ness.haha..u made me forgot my insecurities.in front of u. i can be the most bhb person ever.can do the stupidiest most embarassing things.can eat lyk a big big pig.thank u.i tink i haf gotten all the therapy i needed.hahax..u shd help me by stop acting dao. hints* hahax..=) lovelove.
---8:38 PM---
Labels: crabby love.
chowhuiling.
its 3am now and im so sleepy.
and u haf jus gone to bed.
thanku for these 2 daes. and last thu fri.
the happiest daes ever.
no energy to write a long post.
but briefly.
i jus wan to sae.
u know i love u.
love not lovED. haha..
enough love to make me go under the sun.
eat crabs. eat chilli.
eat fried food. take IT modules.
and hold ur "hand" without screaming.
haha..i miss u.
tell me how do i ever leave u.
rabbymuackzcrabby.
thanku.
love.
---3:04 AM---
Labels: random
gosh. i reached my 200 posts.
=DD
i dunnoe wat to blog.
nth much to blog.
haha..life has been abt sleeping and more more projects.
mummy saes im suffering from depression cos i lose my temper veri easily.
lyk everydae.
easily frustrated.
and either i keep eating nonstop.
or i dun eat at all.
and i keep quarrelling wif hl.
over i dunnoe wat things but they seem impo stuffs.
i kip insisting she doesnt understand.
though i reli tink so.
and im totally stressed up.
totally love sleeping now.
can jus fall zzZ the whole dae.
i reli miss everything
changed my blog song.
loving it.
was yours.
---1:35 AM---
Labels: cw. tots.
sometimes.
mani mani other stuffs act does not matter.
its all abt prioritising anw.
was talking to cw jus now.
things arent going well for him.
and he's taking the hard way out.
but i do trust tt he noes wat he is doing.
so will jus leave things for him to settle himself.
and he alwaes makes me feel guilty for doing the wrong things.
haha.
theres tis inexplainable understanding btw us.
tts y even after so mani yrs.
wif the minimum contact.
we still stay the same. (:
sometimes.
i jus wish i can be more perfect.
---4:30 AM---
Labels: love tis pic. (:
chowhuiling takes the nicest random pics.ur going to my photographer on my wedding dae next time.wahahahas.yest at suntec food fair.lovee.(:
---10:38 PM---
14/03/2008. thank u crab, my love. for giving me the happiest dae in 2008. love. (:(: Labels: happy day.
---4:25 AM---
Labels: ntu. project mates.
i tink i muz haf look bad.cos i seem to look better when i cover up my face. =(tutorial + project mates.dianmin. michelle. jiajia. fiona.2 of the pics taken 1 week before recess week.at ntu wine fair. on vdae. (:by mich. she has a super good camera. those big big can zoom in super well kind. 1 at starbucks cityhall while doing project.1 in school while doing project yest yest.they reli can drink well.cos i cant fini my wine.dm and jiajia jus drank it up for me.=xsweetest pple in ntu. haha..understanding. kind. helpful.they reli make school happier.love. =D
---3:49 AM---
love. Labels: 1 report done.
jus reached home.
ponned 1h of seminar
to go home early.
but yet i reached home at 745pm.
meaning i took 2h15min to reach home.
gosh.
cos was stuck in a bad traffic jam on the bus. =(
but im glad i finally finished my creative report.
8 pages. 2500 words.
but 2 more reports coming up.
sigh.
these few daes i feel as if im stuck in my own world.
but thanku for the encouragements.
it reli kept me going.
its going to be a long way.
jiayous pple too.
lovelovelovelovelove.
=D
updates.
i realised admist tis horrible busy schedule.
it din seem to be as bad as i tot it would be.
but tmr will be quite bad.
cos exam.
but still.
it has to go on.
i realised im contented wif my life now.
but i noe one dae.
things will change.
i cannot take changes.
jus lyk ___.
every now and then.
i'll tink.
do u noe.
__________
i dun know how to describe.
i dun know how to comprehend.
sometimes. no one except urself.
understands urself the best.
but wat if.
even u urself can no longer understand.
wat happens after tt.
haha..
tis isnt mean to be a sad entry huhs.
its jus tt.
everthing is evolving.
do u noe.
do u noe.
i dun know.
anything.
updates again.
i saw read xy blog.
i reli loved tt entry.
thank u love.
u make me feel as if im abit more sane afterall.
hahax.
but tt entry was reli warm and touching.
and ps.
u noe the mtd u were saeing.
last thu at arts canteen.
i tried and it worked.
tt led to the previous previous previous shocking entry.
haha.
whose fault.
uh huhs.
but enough le arhs.
control.
hahax.
indeed. i miss everything too.
---7:45 PM---
Labels: random.
tis stupid yet horribly tedious creative essay is making me super frustrated.
but i'll hang on.
sometimes i wonder.
wonder and wonder.
maybe its true i'll nv understand.
so mani things i cant blog down.
cos there are so mani things i dun noe.
but for the first time.
i agree ignorance is bliss.
it doesnt trouble me anymore.
who saes im demanding uh-huh.
i realised it doesnt take a lot.
or always the simplest things.
to make me a happy girl.
even just for tt little while.
lovelove.
---10:14 PM---
Labels: i dunnoe wat to tink.
its 7.15 am.
and i haven slept.
partly cos i wokeup at 7pm yest.
mostly cos for the past 4h.
i was staring at disbelief at my laptop.
i act came across something tt totally shocked me.
though it doesnt concern me.
but.
i tink im utterly horrified.
how more complicated can the world be?
---7:15 AM---
Labels: tots.
wokeup at 7pm todae.
more than 12 plus hours of sleep.
i muz been reli tireds.
tis sem has been to horrible.
projects projects projects.
mel and xy said tt being busy is good.
cos u wont tink tt much.
i muz say its def a way.
but i find myself tinking abt even other things.
more random things.
tireds.
i wish i could be happier.
uodated.
suddenly.
i feel veri guilty.
veri bad.
for mani stuffs. mani pple.
muz be the assignment.
its making me mad.
im sorry.
esp to crab.
imsorrybaby.
---10:46 PM---
Labels: thursdae. tots. contented.
din do well for stats.
cos i forgot to bring calculator and textbook.
yes.
horribly blur me.
so din manage to settle down properly before the test.
and i forgot alot of stuffs.
but well..guess its over..
so wont reli brood.
but things seem to be going veri veri bad for me tis sem.
but thank u esp to.
shaoqin for lending me ur calculator.
gosh it was so random and last min.
luckily i saw u.
thank u reli.
my stats tut grp mates.
who accompanied me to photostep the forumla sheets.
and weiyuan our sort of grp leader for helping me photostep too.
tohwenqiang my love.
for those super pretty pair of earrings.
u noe.
i l.o.v.e. crystals.
she bought all of us stuff from the ntu carnival.
duper duperly sweeeeeet of her. wahahahas. =D
charles for the dinner at arts canteen.
u still owe me a long story yes.
but i hope u'll be reli happy soon too. (:
sweet xy for accompanying me for dinner too.
and while waiting at subway.
and those random chats.
u make mi tempted to eat subway tmr..=x
lastly chow huiling for the company to orchard for lyk 1h.
cos i had to rush back for project meeting.
and for the *card*. (:
u noe dear.
act i jus realised.
time doesnt matter.
wat matters most is.
are u happy together.
be it be ur noe oni for 3 weeks or anything.
life is short.
i tink i read abit of tt somewhere.
haha..
im sorry again.
for alwaes alwaes diaoing u.
i got tis habit of diaoing nowadaes. and poor u became my target.
i tink we haf gone thru too much.
ur my bestest bestest friend.
sometimes.
we tend to take things for granted.
esp when we are too used to them being by our side.
wat if one dae.
either of us disappear.
i cant survive without u.
u haf seen me grow.
seen me change.
kind of everything has become rooted.
inseparable.
i noe u heart me too.
yea. sometimes. timing and time. doesnt matter at all.
but we are different.
veri veri different indeed.
diff values. diff concepts. diff thinking.
maybe its true tt opposites attract. haha.
but all these differences dont matter at all. since the first/second yr we knew each other.
and i tink our bond is strong enough to withstand everything.
u noe.
im happy when ur happy.
jus lyk i noe u'll be happy when im happy.
and i noe ur happy now.
u gaf me some of the happiest times i ever had.
the best comfort.
the best shoulder to lean on.
u noe my darkest secrets.
ur irreplacable.
i noe ambrose will be nice to u.
i trust his personality i tink. haha.
and i muz sae.
my whole big big heart is sincere in wishing u.
happiness happiness happiness.
sometimes i wish i can be lyk u.
but right now.
i still cant.
im still struggling to hold on to my beliefs.
though they all failed me.
but i'll still find the last faith to believe in.
those childlike childish beliefs.
i was so upset when u tell me u cant figure out those 3 words i left in my 2nd previous entry.
it was.
rabby love crabby.
it has been so long.
tell me u'll nv forget.
our tt.
long long.
alot alot.
deep deep.
crabbit love.
basic practical test morning.
worried.
please jus let me pass this first test.
i may not haf everything
may not haf the best of everything.
but.
i haf everything tt i reli need.
charles said im a lucky girl.
despite all these mani setbacks. mani failures tis sem.
i still feel blessed.
still haf the energy to move on.
thanku loves.
for showering me the care and love i need.
xoxoxoxoxoxox.
lovvveee.
---3:01 AM---
Labels: laughters.
i was feeling tireds.and stressed.and moody.so i was scanning thru pics.tis MADE ME SMILE. =DDDDlook at the smiles.muhahahahahas.how i wish it was still hols.last yr hols.where it was play play n more play.but but.the next hols is coming in 2 mths.and i believe it'll be equally fun too.looking foward.jiayous loves. (: xoxo.
---9:59 PM---
Labels: tots. reflections.
previous post removed.
cos. hahax..abit too random lahhs. =x
thank u for the tags.(=
haha..i lyk my tut project grp mates..
they are so funnie reli.
and sweet.
n fun.
went fal wif jiajia todae to print notes.
then i was joking saying. ehs. maybe my eyecandy is in fal.
then after tt. he reali appeared can.
then later at the printing area, jiajia nudged me cos apple was there. (love.apple. (: )
then was talking to apple.
then next moment my eyecandy was queueing behind apple.
so i deliberately told apple. i shall accompany her to queue..on the pretext of...hahahax.
jkjk.
then apple missed printing a set of note can.
i tink she was distracted. not me.
hahax
but all in all..i tink my tut grp mates are reli a sweet grp of pple.(:
and michelle quek xue min.
if ur reading tis at lyk 6am.
please go sleep.
tis funnie tut mate of mine.
she practically sleeps at 6am everydae and wakeup at 8am.
and eats banana bread everydae. or cornflakes.
which is bad bad.
no sleep. plus no food.
equals to easy to fall sick.
so change soon lahs k.(:
thank u cy for bringing the notes down jus for me.
reli needed them badly.
thanku. =D
and u noe chowhuiling.
i love u.
we haf grown.
we haf changed.
we cant go back to those simple times.
but.
we'll continue moving on to these complicated times together.
im sorry reli for being hopelessly childish.
things change.
but some things can nv change.
and i hope u noe by now tat i alwaes tend to mean the opposite of wat i say.
and i would reli lyk to keep those chapters closed.
and ps. im starting to realise tt they were mistakes.
no one can take away the pasts we shared.
i still can rem every bits of it.
even though i realised all these years.. i had to walk much tougher paths.
but im glad u were there too.
u noe things change.
i noe it changed.
things can nv alwaes happen the way we wan them to.
but everything i do.
no matter how much i wan it otherwise.
no matter how much i hope i can be ignorant. stubborn. demanding. selfish.
no matter how badly i wan something.
i'll still dismiss everything.
and do them the way i shd.
jus becos i shd do so.
_ _ _ _ _. _ _ _ _. _ _ _ _ _ _.
xoxo.
goodnites loves. (:
---3:44 AM---
Labels: hl and ambrose.
the rate at which hl and tt guy ( ambrose) is processing is horribly amazing.
24h a dae.
im serious.
meeting everydae morning night.
calling everydae.
and even though they are meeting tmr, which is mon.
they still muz meet now.
maybe tis is the passion.
re lian zhong de qing lu.
but.
wat is love?
is tis love?
updated.
tt is love. haha.
not for me to judge.
for them to decipher.
i tink they deciphered it.
hl is blessed.
something to cheer me up.
haha. at least, she's happy.
but i dun even tink i can tell anything anymore.
---4:00 PM---
Labels: tots.
as i was reading my past entries.
i realised the difference.
i was _____________________.
but _______________.
i haf ________________________________.
i cannot__________________________________.
time ____________________________.
from ___________________________.
____________________________.
i _______.
i_____.
they sae if_______________.
im ________________.
_ _ _ _ _._ _ _ _ _ _. _.
goodnites. (:
---4:37 AM---
Labels: random tots. comments. tags.
xy blog abit funnie.
y u alwaes haf anonymous comments?
abit mysterious..
bet u wan to noe too..
but then hohs..
i tink if the person bother to comment..
then it shd be someone u noe.
i guess oni.
oh no.
i started another trail of emoness.
no sweets.
no emo please.
smiles. =D
i agree wif xy.
years ater, these things which seem so big now..
will jus be small little pieces of memories we haf..
for us to share and laugh.
i feel sad too.
tat afew of my close frens are unhappy too.
and to goldfish yes.
everything is not lost yet.
u reli still haf alot alot.
work towards ur goal k! (:
i muz work towards mine too.
haha..(=
and i tink xy's passerby comments quite meaningful lehs.
haha..sorry sweet.
i quite surprised someone act will leave a comment for u instead of tagging..hahax..
but it seems quite meaningful.
did u notice? go take a look.
passerby, he/she. haha..said tt being loved is better than loving.
i used to strongly oppose tt.
but now,
i tink theres no choice but to agree.
but arent we being loved too? (:
enough of the rants.
iloveur alot. haha..
xoxo.
l.o.v.e.
---8:42 PM---
Labels: random tots.
i wonder wats wrong with me.
mood swing again?
so sick of myself.
and no.
its not becos _______.
nth to do wif it.
do u noe how much i miss those times.
in rv.
even in nj.
i realised,
despite hafing the ugliest puffiest thickest hair.
i was happy.
despite hafing the stressfulest horriblest timetable n work.
i was happy.
but now.
i can haf the nicest things i wan.
the yummiest food.
tat pretty pair of earrings.
but im reli not happy at all.
but i can hide it so well if i wan to.
beneath all those smiles.
those laughters.
i tink maybe one event leads to another.
forming the now super messed up complexed emotions.
there are somethings yrs ago tt i reli cannot forget.
tt i reli regret.
but i tink i learnt alot from it.
but its so long ago.
tt those who shd __ haf__.
ignore me k.
i tink i will be fine soon.
i could haf been happy.
but i chose the other path.
---2:58 PM---
Labels: 2b outing
pictures for our outing on tue.L movie + lunch + kbox + dinner = l.o.v.e. =Dmel lahs..kip refusing to take pic..grp pic ran away..still try to cover face wif cushion..and i finally recieved my 5mth old prez.precious moments photo album wif u gals letters.thank u. (:will nv forget us being super noisy in the cinema.silly yj teared becos L died.nono.we love u. muz (:happiest dae i had for quite sometime.i tink.ur are the biggggest prez i took wif me from rv. (= and in order to disturb yj.*refers to last pic* fiona : L kiss kiss.L : fiona kiss kiss.muacks! =ddddd haha..who ask u kip disturbing my jay..now my turn to disturb l..wahahahas. goodnites.lovelove.
---2:04 AM---
