Labels: pictures. hl. love.
26/4/2008 cooking wif hl. (: accidentally cut my hand but its recovering fine fine. looking at these pics reminded me of all the fun we had. missing and loving every moment we had. Try as they mayThey could never defineWhat's been saidBetween your heart and mine guess where are these lyrics from..haha.. and suddenly when im at ur blog right now.. i suddenly see a new entry.. and then stupidly realised.. UR ONLINE.. omgg. right now. at 3am. im hearting u lyk mad. crabbit love. from 2003 - 9999. love.
---2:35 AM---
Labels: random
second post of the nite.
4am.
cos im feeling tt tiny bit of emoness. haha..
cant sae i dun mind completely.
i cant pretend i dun noe.
but its unfair.
cos i myself cant ever erase.
but tt small part of me.
still wish tt there wasnt such a big part of unremovable imprints tt will alwaes stay.
perhaps. wat matters most is the present and past. is easier said than done.
i noe.
i reli noe.
but tis made me unhappy.
expectations. demanding. maybe.
dun dare to infer.
" 分手两年后我还是想着你
为什么人总要等到失去才珍惜
我来不及想告诉你
要永远不分离"
wat does it mean now.
theres alot more which is yet unseen.
more to come.
perhaps wat i crave.
is all too unattainable.
call me greedy. selfish.
but who isnt.
is tis all i can haf.
tmr i shall wakeup and meet my mummy for lunch at her office area..
then perhaps shop awhile..
then go meet hl in school..
i miss u alreadi.
though we jus met on sat..=p
photos up soon..
check 5am.
time for sleep..
goodnites world..
love.
---3:42 AM---
Labels: random. tots. hl. waraku.
=D
went to waraku todae..
bill was 150 plus for 4..quite reasonable act..
tried their reli super yummy udon in cream wif scallops..
it was reli so so good tt i fini the whole bowl all by myself..
along wif other mani mani food..
the scallops were yumyum..
i reli wanted to take a photo of the spread..
but then..the food is so tempting..tt i alwaes fini it before i can take any photos..
next time def..
cant wait to go there again..(:
its 230am now..
and i jus wokeup from a long nap and bathed..
it feels so refreshing to bathe at nite..
bad for health i noe..
but my timetable is so messed up..
sleeping so late during exam period..
and now even after exam..im still sleeping late..bad bad..
shall try to turn back my clock..
i lyk colourful posts..but im sometimes quite lazy to change the colours..
reli..blogging is lyk an addiction..
the more u blog..the more ur addicted..
the lesser u blog..the addiction will jus fade..
tts y freezetheframe is sometimes so stagnant..hohhhs...=x
reli lyk tis song by mariah carey.
i stay in love.
simple yet nice.
her album e=mc2 is reli nice.(:
i reli feel lyk going to starcruise wif hl..
shall do some hmwork on it..
though i tink its reli late nw..
hope its still available..
sometimes..
there are some things we thought we can forget..
maybe yes..for some period of time..
but yet..in the end..
we realise we reli cant jus treat as if nth happened and erase them from our memories completely..
perhaps in fact..tis is wat make us human..
the ability to feel..the ability to rem.
wat happened in the past..
shaped us for the future.
we may be wat we are.
becos of the past.
whether its good or bad.
it reli depends.
but no matter.
we shd embrace the past and look forward.(:
tinking back.
i haf no regrets at all.
i tink ive finally tot thru completely.
but yet.
im thankful for all no matter wat it was. (:
sometimes i tot i can jus erase completely.
but whenever i revisit.
i noe i can nv.
but it doesnt matter.
im finally happy.
reli grateful for wat i haf.
my family my frens my loves.
the every bit of short memories.
things i noe i may nv ever experience again.
its gone gone.
but.
every part of it will still stay inside.
thank u(:
i lyk the lyrics of my song..
but i reminds me of hl whenever i hear it..
and u noe i feel so regretful babe..=(
how i wish..=((
love u.
We said let go
But I kept on hanging on
Inside I know it's over
You're really gone
It's killing me
Cause there ain't nothing
That I can do
Baby, I stay in love with you
i reli love u babe.
crabbit rules.
5 years 4 mths 28 daes.
<3.
lovelove.
---2:22 AM---
Labels: after exams
its 2am now..and im horribly tireds..after finishing a horrible stats paper todae..but i reli wan to declare tt..
my pigpig exams are finally over. =DDDDD
wahahas..=DD
but..i tink tis sem im going to flunk lyk nobody's biz..i was so shocked by stats..couldnt do lyk dunnoe..all the qns?
i tink its stupid yes..but im oni aiming to pass for all my subs reli.
i tink tts the highest i can even get.
overall tis sem has been rough for me.
too mani random stuffs.
too mani distractions.
lyk my obsession wif tv and msn esp.
but.
its over over.
regrets. maybe.
but now tt its over.
i can oni live wif it.
jus let me pass please.
sad stuffs abt grades aside.
im jus so glad exams are over over. haha..
and to my dearest nus peeps..
jiayous okay..(:
jus 1-2 weeks more..
and ur will be free free too..
jiayous jiayous jiayous okay..love. (:
and a biggest thank u..to all the encouragements i recieved all tis while..esp to cy daily long smses..(=
i feel so loved when i see my tagboard flooded wif tags..
though i dun understand any of the codings..uni is making me stupider..=(
but still..they all cheered me up alot..
ur are the best =D
so here is a veri veri sleepy and tireds fiona..but still trying hard to put all the tots into words..
i shd start blogging regularly again..
and start putting pics..
my blog is getting plain..=(
and..i was so happie tat exams are over..tt i went for lunch wif charles at orchard..then shopped at far east..
let me share my loots..=DD
1) 2 tshirt dresses
i bought a red one orginally then lyked it so much..tt i bought a similar one in blue too..shall wear it tmr..love it alot. its pretty. (:
2) 2 belts
black transparent and a thick white belt..
i haf mani mani belts..lyk more than 10 at home..lyk to buy belts..but rarely use..but yet i still buy..cos it was reli nice..=x
3) 2 bangles
silvery black. love.
4) a super bimbotic white wif cherry prints hairband.
it looks super bimbotic. dunnoe wat made me bought it. but i tot it looked reli cutes.
tts all. for abt 2h of shopping.
but boo.
all tis isnt enough of cos.
i wan bags.
and heels.
and flats.
and a makeup book.
and eyeshadows.
and more dresses.
and and..
list goes on......
happie happie fiona can finally go out wif mum and sis tmr to haf a yummy lunch tmr.(:
and did i mention before.
waraku a jap resturant in mani places eg suntec is reli a veri good jap restaurant. their jap food is jus so good. perfect.
missing it alreadi.
may be going tis sun wif family. =D
and i haf a wishlist for food too..
im hafing horrible bad bad cravings for..
1) steamboat
2) international buffet
3) desssssserts.
4) crystal jade xiaolongbao. =D
5) jap food.
haha..tis is all i can manage to blog..
act i dun reli noe wat im blogging..
too tireds reli..
but tis took me a whole 45min..
slowslow..
lastly again..
jiayous my nus loves.
then we can go to our long awaited outing.
we muz go kbox and long nite chat okay.
okayokay?
jiayous.
loves.
loves.
loves.
---2:03 AM---
Labels: random
im feeling so enlightened and fill of emos and full of tots.
but im lazy to blog..haha..
soon k..
goodnites loves. (:
---2:21 AM---
Labels: random
tis is a hard path reli.
how i wish..
u were right beside me.
but wait.
u are.
u haf been beside me.
right beside me.
thank u.
b
chowhuiling
b
lovelove.
---1:06 AM---
Labels: emo. random. tots. girls. hl.
will update tonite. (:
i reli cant wait to go to the chinatown kbox again..
updates.
its late at nite now..sipping my cup of hot jasmine green tea. i feel at peace. happy? haha..
so mani events haf happened recently..the past few weeks..
not to me act..but the pple ard me..
it has been reli quite long since i blogged properly..suddenly im at loss for words.
realised blogging is lyk a habit..the more frequent u blog..the more inclined u'll wan to blog..and it carries on..
all the events though nt directly concerning me evoked mani strong tots and emotions in me..reli.
is it a sign of maturity or y is it tt i find myself changing my tinkings..
to the more pessimistic side i muz sae..
maybe as we grow up..we see more and experience more and realised what we act believed were act childish tinkings..
tts y pple change..tts y our tots change.
sadly. everything is reality.
and we haf to accept reality.
the truth?
the cold truth hurts act reli.
it goes back down to the most basic level. the trust.
i tink one of the saddest things tt can happen is the violation of the trust,
maybe tts y my girls xy mel haf been saying..we reli shdnt trust so easily. to protect ourselves, to prevent ourselves from getting hurt.
it irks me to the core to see history repeating itself to so mani of the pple i love most.
set aside all those excuses.
they are nt the least bit real.
if u love someone.
u can NEVER bear to hurt them.
regardless of all those wat unforseen circumstances.
regardless of becos of tis becos of tt there was no choice etc.
regardless of no hafing a better way out becos of the situation.
we noe its all lies.
but. we choose to believe them.
its stupid.
but.
it seems lyk a kinder way out.
wat else can we do except to make ourselves feel better by still believing them?
it all shows how fragile r/s are act.
so fragile its scary.
wat happened to those happy moments shared.
those probs overcome together.
all discarded. all thrown away. all forgotten.
in e end. it all again boils down to the person's personality and values.
if he/she tinks wat he does is acceptable though its way wrong. then tts becos his/her character can condone such an action.
but then. wat happens.
if the silliest thing one can do. is to even afford to overlook such flaw in the person. and still like him/her the same.
do we call tt selfless or silliness.
it all depends.
but ultimately.
we make our own choice.
is it worth making the mistake.
its hard to weigh act.
either we bear the pain of withdrawing.
or the pain of falling hard and recover slowly bit by bit.
i tink most will choose the second option.
me too.
extreme silliness yes. extreme stupidity yes.
but if u tink its worth the pain and sacrifice. if u tink its wat u wan. if u tink tts the path u wan to choose. if u can bear the consequences tt follow.
then jus go. jus go.
watever happens.
we alwaes haf out closest sweetest frens supporting us till e end.
u fall deep deep.
we hold u up strong strong.
but i can nv understand y.
why some pple can reli bear to do cruel stuffs.
maybe they dun know.
or they do but yet choose to ignore.
for their own selfish purposes.
its sad.
but tis is life isnt it.
but why...
being a bitbit biased here.
but guys reli shdnt break a girl's heart.
cos they'll reli take ages to recover.
once they lyk a guy. they reli reli do.
girls are meant to be loved. to be pampered. to be taken care of.
so guys, ( though i tink almost all of ur reading are girls..haha..but still..)
love ur girls.
humans alwaes make tis mistake.
of treasuring something oni after losing them.
its the loss tat make them realise how they cant live without.
but yet.
most of the time.
its jus too late.
so treasure.
hold them tight.
haha..apologetic for the strong emotions though im perfectly fine cos no worries..nth much happen to me recently..(:
jus alot of stuffs tat i saw..
i used to believe in happy ever after.
tis fairytale bubble which i hold dear. which i fiercely guarded.
but yet.
it seems lyk my bubble is bursting.
unhappy emo stuffs aside.
realised i spent an h on all tis cos my tots are all jumbled up..haha..
missing my girls VERI BADLY.
wanting the late long nite chats together.
wanting kbox.
wanting the shopping.
wanting just a pure gathering together.
i haf so mani updates i wan to hear from ur.
so mani things to sae.
looking forward.
and its the first month of hl and my 2 daes back.......
hmm...=p
thank u babe for alwaes..haha..
feeling random.
so cheers to our 5th yr 4 months and 17 daes.
we were a miracle yes.
and u noe even if the big big clouds fall down..i'll still support u..u'll still support me..
strongest love ever.
lyk my blog song..haha..i alwaes lyk my blog songs..but its precisely i lyk them tts y they are on my blog..=d
its let me love you by mario..
hmm..
simple lyrics but catchy song.
let me be your selection.
goodnites loves.
fiona has the sweetest frens ard her.
xoxo.
---8:37 PM---
Labels: happy
sweetest girl todae.
thank u.
and thank u hl. u know y.
love.
---6:56 PM---
Labels: alex
alex jus left for taiwan for ns.
shd be on the plane now.
1 mth.
it doesnt look as if its veri long.
but its reli going to feel veri veri veri long.
takecares.
i miss u alex.
---3:11 AM---
Labels: sad tots. random.
its 10am and i jus reached school not long ago..
half an hr early for lect..
so im here blogging abit in the com lab..
yest was an upset nite for me.
cos sj acted wanted a real breakup wif cw.
y the word real shall leave it aside. loads of complications in it.
was talking wif cw all the way.
then later cw added me into a conver wif sj..
and i said wat i could and shd.
but after tt i guess i din help alot.
cos sj seems veri determined.
but.
i reli couldnt bear seeing them lyk tis.
they haf been together for 2 yrs plus almost 3.
but wat made me reli tink alot is..
y is it tt 2 pple who loved/love each other so much and long..
can act haf such strong doubts abt each other feelings..
then all the past and memories for so long..
does it jus become nth when one initiates a breakup..
are promises then meant to be broken.
update.
act i wanted to continue writing..
but sigh..
too mani things to pen down...
all saturated.
suddenly all tots are messed up.
but i'll do my best to help cw.
wish he'll be fine.
things haven been going veri smoothly.
but i feel blessed reli.
enough to pull me thru.
thank u for all the encouragement all the way.
tis path seems rocky.
esp wif so mani things happening to the pple i hold dear.
hang on too k.
jiayous.
its oni going to get better.
loads of love, love, love.
---9:58 AM---
Labels: love.
dear loves,
jus for ur. (:
i feel so badbadbad for abandoning my babyblog.
miss my blog.
miss my tags.
miss ur.
so mani things i reli wan to do.
but yet no time.
but its oni a phase..
will make it thru..
jiayous loves.
i missmissmissmissmissmiss.
missmissmissmissmiss.
missmissmissmiss.
missmissmiss.
missmiss.
miss.
love.
---10:53 AM---
Labels: break.
am reli going to take a break from the cyber world for the next 3 weeks..
hmm..nth much happening in my life to blog abt too..
guess peaceful is the best world to describe my life now..
and i treasure it alot.
final stuffs.
i do miss my girls alot.
i dreamt of us drinking milo and some $8 ice lemon tea wif honey ( dunnoe y such a combi) together and chatting..
i do miss zr oso.
haven seen her for 3mths full but i noe she is coping well.
do look forward to life after exams so tt i can go out wif pple i haven seen for long.
and hope tt lyk wat mel said..
ur can solve all the probs..
and yea..reach the final destination..hahax..(:
and lastly to goldfish.
take cares k.
prioritise prioritise prioritise.
u'll alwaes be my fav goldfish ya. ((:
in school now..
and it'll oni end at 630..
for some reason..
i feel lyk going home immediately.
its time.
LOADS AND LOADS OF LOVE.
fio.
---1:21 PM---
Labels: random tots. happie april fool's dae.
sorry for the lack of updates..
haf been in tired mode recently..
too lazy to even type anything..
i'll sae everyone has their darkest secrets..their darkest pasts..their most secretive memories..
everyone does.
u do.
i do too.
sometimes things may not be within our control.
but i believe tt even for tt slightest smallest moment.
we had the choice to make our own decisions.
we may be bounded by circumstances.
but still.
eventually,
we are bounded by our own choices.
tis is totally random.
jus striked m mind for no reason.
haha..im hungry..
off to buy subway cold cut trio and fav bubble tea.
if some things are not meant to be understood.
then perhaps we shdnt understand them.
maybe?
maybe not.
chowhuiling imissu.
HAPPIE APRIL FOOL'S DAE MY LOVES.
lovelovelove.
=D
---3:17 PM---
