Labels: stats lesson.
going chinatown wif hl later..
jus some nonsense cos im bored during stats lesson now..
haha..bad bad..
during msn conver last nite :
fiona : sobs..my hair veri dry le lahs..
hl : so dry u go wet it lohs..
rubbishhh.
k lahs..off to concentrate on my lesson..haha..2 more hrs! (:
lovelove.
---1:01 PM---
Labels: hl. random tots.
y does my life seem so messed up for the past 3 weeks..
tireds.
still waiting.
i haf been seeing so much of hl for the past 1-2 weeks esp.
its lyk almost everydae.
to tink tat she is in nus and im in ntu.
plus the late nite msn n calls.
it seems lyk she has become a temporary remedy and shelter for mi.
to try to escape and forget abt things still roaming in my mind. haha..
i reli tink i shd start saving myself soon..
cant wait for new year next week..
maybe i shd start slimming down if i wan to wear my qipao..haha..
and..prange wif soursoup juice from can a is weirdly yummy..
goodnites. =D
lovelove.
how i wish..time could turn back..
---2:23 AM---
Labels: pics. memories. apple.
i randomly came across a fren's frenster acct when i was too boreds doin stats..the comments were reli so funnie can..hahax..made mi laugh and cheered mi up instantly..=D i grabbed the photos from all of our holidae outings finally..haha..zy stop uploading videos of jay into facebook..upload into blogggg so tt i can see..zy was excitedly telling mi about the concert todae during lect lojealous..humph..hahax..AND I SAW WENQIANG IN SCHOOL TODAE...engine canteen..hahax..during my lect break..i was so stunned..hahax..first time in 2008..wq is finally getting out of her hall..wahas..
lazy to upload too mani photos..so jus 4 group ones..in kbox last yr dec end..and nus engine canteen last thu..going there again tmr..
haf tis strong craving for the potato salad there..(: * y does yj look so cute when she twists or pouts?unfair! hahax.. ps.thank u apple for cheering mi up..for alwaes being ableto empathise..love uuu ..=Dnites love. (:
---3:22 AM---
Labels: tireds.
its 215am now..
and im msning wif hl again..
she's scolding mi on msn..
alwaes the person who brings mi back to reality..
who force mi to face the truth.
im tireds.
12h of sleep yest din help at all..
4h of ob was horrible reli.
too much information..
im lagging so much behind..
and its oni the third week..
wats happening to mi..
physically and emotionally exhausted.
veri.
veri veri.
i feel lyk running away.
i feel lyk escaping.
im so tireds of everything.
so sick of all the schoolwork.
so sick of all the troubles.
i reli feel lyk going on a holidae. now.
can someone bring mi to a faraway place
please...
---2:12 AM---
Labels: xy bdae celebration. fish and co. lovee.
pics as promised.xy bdae celebration at fish and co..i loveee the pics.aint my gals pretty.(:love the smiles..haha..i cant wait to hug my pillow and doggy..goodnites..xoxo.
---3:12 AM---
Labels: msn, tots. nap.
2.5h of nap but im still sleeepy..
msn is addictive..
msing everynite wif hl..
talking rubbish..
my fren complained seeing mi too much on msn at nite!
hahax..
humans are nv satisfied..
why..
greed?
ignorance ignorance ignorance.
truth truth truth.
i alwaes whine to hl..saeing my tis isnt good enough..my tat isnt perfect..tis isnt good..tat isnt nice..
but yet..
its those imperfections tat make one unique.
its those flaws tat make fiona..fiona.
perhaps i shd stop complaining..and save hl poor ears..haha..(:
i was so tireds tat during the shuttle bus ride back to sch from hall canteen for econs lessons..
jiajia accompanied mi to ride one more extra round..
so tat i can catch a nap on the bus..
for an extra 15min..
she's such a sweet rites..and she brings mi around ntu for lunch at those hall canteens every mon..=D
sleeping time..
goodnites.
lovelove.
---1:58 AM---
Labels: pictures. suntec . hl.
retarded pics taken yest at suntec.hl stayed over at my hse the nite before..haha..jus a random decision..but she ko so early and slept at 3am..zzZ..2 pple told mi my hair looks dry..sobs..whines.but it doesnt reli do so in the photo..but dry in real life..cos hasnt been taking care of it alot..=((will go for treatment soon..sigh..accting presentation tmr..12 of sleep feels so lovelove.haha..back to my econs..econs again..and tv! xoxo.
at 2.30 am.. lyk tis song alot..though its a sad song..say goodbye by chris brown.. econs tut again tmr..im dreading reli..wq can u spark my love for econs?=(tireds..goodnites. lovelove.
---4:14 PM---
Labels: happie bdae xy.
HAPPIE BIRTHDAE MY DEAREST LOVE.
we shall all go celebrate tmr at the glasshouse..
love u xueyi.
HAPPIEST BDAE!
love. =D
---9:48 PM---
Labels: horrible homework. tots.
i cant even fini half of my work due. reli.
so much to clear.
but my mind jus cant focus or absorb.
tmr is going to be a long dae too.
3h of sleep for the past 3 daes are horrible.
surviving on cups after cups of green tea and milk tea.
but sleeping late doesnt even help in finishing any bit of work..
cos my mind jus cannot tink..cant come up wif the answers.
fiona please wakeup.
sigh..=(
edited.
watched jay's secret dvd todae wif hl at home.
lyked it alot. the ending was reli surprising. but i lyk the happie ending. touching show. (:
horribly insecure.
fiona muz be so stupid to see the facts placed right infront. but yet still refuse to believe.
denial.
its jus tat something deep inside.
is pulling mi back.
and im feeling sad becos of something tat happened to my close fren.
it made mi reli tink even more.
my heart is feeling weird.
fiona is tireds.
i dun haf the energy to continue anymore.
---12:31 AM---
Labels: emo. ob lesson. dance. jay.
previous post removed cos it was too emo..
too emo posts are veri bad..
haha..
attended organisational behaviour sem todae..4h..
so so long..
we did 2 personality tests..
which are quite accurate act..
haha..the first one isnt tt good cos it revealed tat im disorganised..as in..not stable..haha..and its quite true..
and etc etc..but i forgot..
the second one was abt emotional intelligence..which i score reli high..
but its obvious cos emo pple of cos haf high EI isnt it..haha..
7h of lect tmr..
how!
its so so long..
horrible long..
dun lyk wed..
start so early..end so late..
alot of work undone. alot.
and i went ballroom dancing practise if my og todae.
it was cutes.
haha..kind of lyk it act..
but it ended so late..8 plus..reach home 9 plus..
next dae sch 8am..
so im considering whether i shd reli go..time constraint..
and i miss my belllyyy dancing..hahax..
growing fatter..
rubbish hl was singing jay chou song on the phone todae tis afternoon cos the radio played jay's 龙卷风..
one of my fav jay song..
haha..music become noise can..
wahahhas..
jay's concert tis fri..zy is going..
im going to hide in her bag..humphs..
爱情来的太快 就像龙卷风
离不开暴风却来不及逃
我不能再想 我不能再想
我不我不我不能
爱情走得太快就像龙卷风
不能承受我已无处可躲
我不要再想 我不要再想
我不我不我不要再想你
yeas..going out wif my gals tis fri to celebrate xy bdae..
love them. love her. =D
cy..thank u so much for alwaes cheering mi up..
alwaes listening to mi..
alwaes bearing wif all my nonsense..
fiona is so imperfect reli.
but i feel so lucky. (:
reli sleepy now..shd be sleeping soon soon..
goodnites pple..
lovelove.(:
---12:22 AM---
Labels: wedding. tots.
went to meritus mandarin to find cw after dinner wif my uncle..we ate jap..(:
randomly felt lyk meeting cw..so went down to the hotel to find him as he was working there wif his frens as videographers and photographers for a wedding..
were beside them..haha..watched them film..
and i saw the video they made..
it was so sweet..
teared when i saw the video..
maybe cos it was made by cw..
and cos the couple was reli lovely. tat was love.
after tt sj came..and we walked ard orchard together..
* cw is going and muz and haf to do the entire video when its my wedding years later..(:
was talking to cw for awhile oni..cos he was reli busy wif his work..
tot he would haf scolded mi..
but he din..
haha..he saes theres no right or wrong..
oni jus tat it may be a mistake.
though i tink its abit rubbishh cos mistake means its an error meaning its wrong rites..
but bleahs..haha..
im reli quite upset.
but i cant blog it down here.
upset tat i shdnt be upset.
its jus a passing phase.
one dae i'll grow up.
im getting more n more emotional nowadaes reli.
but soon the tuts and projects will catch up..and i'll be too busy to tink of anything..
haha...so reli..kbox shd be soon rites? =D
hafing lunch at a reli good chinese restaurant tmr lunch wif my family at clarke quay.
and i haven done my tuts at all.
theres accting and econs.
horrible econs.
sighsigh.
sleepy..
goodnites loves.
xoxo. (:
---1:30 AM---
Labels: shopping wif hl. sat.
haha..i feel lyk blogging so so much..
but too tireds to reli type well..
went sch and then bugis n orchard wif hl..
before her sch starts..
my phone went flat even before evening..
couldnt take any pics..
but i bought 2 dresses..and a pair of heels..
and a nice dress for my mummy for new yr (:
hl bought a cardigan and a top!! first time she's act tempted into shopping..
muz be my influence..haha..
we went food trail..cos we ate alot..
including fav xiao wan mian n honey green tea wif pearl..(:
haf to wakeup early for my first driving THEORY lesson..
i dun understand y does theory nid lesson..
but still..its a complusory so haf to go..
after tat will be dinner wif my uncle to celebrate his bdae..
i tink he's settling down in vietnam soon..=((
will blog more if i haf time time tis weekend..
sigh..tutorials officially starting on mon..
i tink econs is reli horrible horrible..
its so hard..
i was so lost during lect..
off to bed..
tata..
lovelove. (:
---2:06 AM---
Labels: stars. exchange program. lyrics. random.
finally managed to kind of settle my timetable..
no impulsive decisions in future rem..
now keeping track of the available slot for my fren..
*thank u zr cy for the encouragement (:
tmr going for summer exchange talk wif dm and zy..
summer exchange is lyk the shortest exchange..1 mth..much much shorter than global exchange..which is more prestigeous act..and much longer..cos its lyk 6 months..
will go for the talk to see if its reli tat interesting and convincing..
it'll def be good on the resume..
jus tat i reli cannot bear to leave spore for 1 mth..
even 1 week will kill..
haha..
i'll miss so mani pple..so much other stuffs..
i reli cant live without my family..
and of cos my darlings..hahax..
i still rem after going for chalet..and star cruise..by the time it was the msia trip..
i alreadi missed spore so so much..and they were lyk oni 1 week plus..
haha..maybe i'll try and see wat country i get..the duration..the program..and then decide..
im weak..but still i reli cant bear to leave even though its oni one month..haha..
sae ur 'll miss mi too k..(:
i suspect yj come to my blog jus to listen to the song..
bad bad..
so heres the lyrics for u sweet..
i reli loveeeeeee tis song..reli one of SHE's best songs..
though it makes one emo..
maybe one dae we can go wq house..and blast tis song..and all emo together k..
wq hall oso can!!
our wq hallwarming lahs..2nd sem still haven warm lohs..=p
haha..some things i reli feel lyk writing down..bt cos its overly rubbishh thus its jumbledup bad badly..haha..
ngwozhwoxiashiweishmedaendexihuannikeihaoniuebunengwoxuyaonideshosheng
ngzaiwangkeisheufannuoshipeizhmedangniyohiwouebusainishengpangdeq
finally..the lyrcis of the song playing in my blog..
挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗 没有你每到夜回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法 让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗 是不是也在思念挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗 忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我 快向快乐出发
有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了 明天还长 回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下
lets master tis and go kboxxx okays! i wan to seeee the mtv! =D
its late..
glad tt lect tmr is at 1pm..
those horrible longg hours of lects are reli tiring..
im so glad its fri tmr..
the weekend has finally arrived..
xoxo.
lovelove. (:
---1:35 AM---
Labels: timetable. tireds.
og nite picnic under the stars at adm ( school ) later..
but i haf no energy to go le..
im so horribly tireds..
long long lectures..
dun even haf time to reli eat..
and i did 2 big big mistakes in my timetable..
sobs..
im reli regretting it so badly..
shdnt haf been so careless..
and its kind of irreversible..
reli wan to go for horus gathering later..
but it'll be lyk midnite when i reach home..
and tmr is reli till 630..=((
physically mentally tireds..
maybe i reli nid time to adjust to the 7h of lects..
guess it'll be fine soon..
but my timetable..="(
jus feel lyk hugging my doggy and lie on bed..jus go zzZ..
but still haf to try hard for my timetable..
and my og gathering tonite..
sigh..
:(
---7:13 PM---
Labels: i dun lyk stars.
go msn go msn!
haha..
im so stuck to the com..
haf been refreshing for countless no of times..
shall complain abt it later..
haha..
msn is my oni entertainment now..
go msn find mi! (:
edit*
warm jasmine tea is loveeee.(:
3 loooong lectures start tmr! =(
---2:46 PM---
update at 3am. hl alwaes scold mi..saeing im fj (hidden word)..hahax..but..stubborn fiona alwaes oni learn after falling down badly.. but yet im still moving on closer n closer to the trap.. how stupid can fiona can. and hl is gifing up her hopes on mi soon..bahhh.. its time to zzZ..haf to wakeup at 8am tmr.. Labels: random. sch timetable. stubborn.
im becoming more n more ironic nowadaes.
everything i sae seem to be contradicting.
on the phone :
fiona : u dun worrie abt mi..
i can de..
i noe wat to do..
huiling : okays..
fiona : u evils.
u dun care mi le lo.
u nv ask how am i.
huiling : *speechless*
hahaha..poor hl has to stand all my nonsense..
all the grumblings..whinings..rubbish..
maybe the starting of school has made mi more n more random.
tmr is add drop period..
im reli so worried..
its abit late to start tinking now..
but i muz tink of all the combinations by tmr 8am..
another nite of staring at the screen tinking reli hard..
hope tmr wont be too bad..
but sigh..the competitiveness is alwaes horrible..=(
off to bathe..
a nite of staring at my lappy wif a cup of fav green tea awaits mi..
haha..
nitenites (:
* update at 12am
i realise wed n thu lectures are all from 830 to 630..howwww..sobs..=(
im walking towards a deep pit knowing theres no ending no return..
lovelove.
* gals..i wan kbox!!!
wo xu yao ni de ai
(:
---11:12 PM---
Labels: bbq at wq condo. first bbq 2008.
pics finally up..as promised. (:i took lyk 100000000000000000 years..cos the pics are heavy..and high megapixel..haha..thus the slow process of uploading..but glad to finally fini it..(: bbq was fun fun fun..yummy food..burnt food..uncooked food..haha.. and the card game..but it was oni for awhile..nt enough! tat pink agar agar took mi 2h to solidfy it..haha..lovelove. there was so mani kittens and cats there..they were reli cutes..but too skinny..=(so we fed them wif alot of food..tink they lyk chicken wings most.. and..ur so tall can..kip blocking..i muz tiptoed and tilt upwards..bleahs..next time i will chiong to the front..=p so which is my fav photo....guess guess guess..its the " 5th " photo..why hohs..cos yj lips veri cutes rites..*pouts*=p *yj dun beat us..haha..we still heart u alottttttt.. off to bathe..lastly.. yj. ms. mel. lj. zy. alice. cherie. xy. ky. tess. wq. fiona. fiona loves her gals. (:
xoxo.lovee. (:
---10:00 PM---
Labels: school tmr.
school is starting tmr..
i dunwannnnn.
how can one month of hols jus pass lyk tis..
i dunwan school to start tmr.
=( =( =( =( =(
---7:16 PM---
Labels: old pics. kbox. bbq tmr.
* will blog abt kbox and bbq together tmr or tmr tmr..it was superbly high n fun..zy saes im suffering from post-kbox syndrome..haha..((:
old photos from dnd..and from my bdae celebration outing.. dear crab..tell mi who else can alwaes put tat smile on my face..l.o.v.e (: goodnites pple..shall make jelly for my gals tmr for bbq..hahax..nitenites. =D
---2:22 AM---
Labels: downtown east chalet. zr. hl. kbox.
finally back again..
missed home so much..
reli hard to fall zzz in the chalet when the aircon is so cold..and there theres nth to hug..haha..
miss my bloster and doggy..
glad to be back..
home sweet home..=D
chalet was fun. fun. fun.
catfight wif hl was reli fierce.
we jumped on the bed. screamed. shouted.
snatched each others stuffs. threw things ard.
until we were too tireds to carry on.
haha..but we woke poor zr who was resting..
we watched pursuit of happiness by willsmith..
it was so real.. touching..and meaningful.
love all the shows by willsmith cos he can act reli well.
we watched till lyk 4 plus am..and zr happily went to her dreamland..
hl decided not to gif up..and continued watching some other show..some love story but i forgot the title cos i wasnt watching..
chatted wif hl..continued till i cant decipher wat hl was saeing..and soon..i went into dreamland too..
but owl hl slept oni at 6am..
couldnt reli fall zzz..kip waking up..so evils mi decided to gif up the idea of sleeping at ard 10..and woke hl up to accompany mi..wahahas..
bad fiona..
was kip poking her..talking to her..waking her up..so she eventually gaf up the idea of sleeping and accompanied mi too..
then later zr and my sis wokeup too..
we continued lazying on the bed..
talking..
but i act fell zzz halfway..
finally managed to sleep for an h..
haha..maybe its cos zr was beside mi then..thus it was warmer and more cosy..(:
details later too..
but tis chalet was reli a good time for mi to spend time wif my dearest loves in my life..
haha..my sis was there too..and she was exceptionally sweet and obedient..
but wat i wan to sae is..
i reli reli love my zr and hl..
they are the pple who haf seen mi for years.
seen my worst sides.
seen mi when i jus wokeup.
seen mi when im sad. down. happie. high. troubled. insecure.
but still stick to me.
and love me the same.
alwaes wanting the best for me.
THANK U LOVES.
im happie to see tat ur are happie too.
im happie to see the bliss zr shares wif steven
im happie to see hl contented and blessed.
(:
hl is now crapping and emoing wif mi online.
and here i am forgetting abt my tiredness..and tat i haf to wakeup early tmr for our fav fav gals kbox outing!
zy is so cutes..
her msges are so high..
she sounded so so happie tat we are going kbox..
and it makes mi even more excited too..
cant wait.
we muz get the big big room k.. (:
and bbq tmr nite..
our - surround the pit chatting bbqing and eating at the same time..
=D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D =D
loveeeee.
---2:56 AM---
Labels: picture
---4:29 AM---
Labels: 1/1/2008.
jus came back from clarke quay.
originally everything was reli fun.
but on the bridge suddenly 3 of us got sprayed by foam.
and mine was in the eye.
then mani unknown pple kept spraying.
but couldnt escape cos vision was blurred by the foam.
in the end was ran straight.
ended up where the rest of the pple were.
but although zr and i were in the centre of every1..we still got sprayed alot..
later we managed to escape into a shopping centre.
and i hurriedly wash my eyes.
then dunnoe y i decided to take off my lens.
but it was stuck.
was reli so afraid.
tink i scared zr n hl.
then after some rinsing..the lens could be taken off..but it became lyk reli soft and melted..and crumpled together..maybe its the chemicals.
luckily i took them off in time.
but eyes became red.
but now its better le.
got scolded by mummy. =(
tink it was meant to be harmless fun.
jus tt maybe i wasnt tall enough and the foam got directly into my eyes.
lesson learnt.
she be more careful or avoid such places in future.
thank u for the smses. (:
but still..the fireworks were pretty.(:
hope it was longer though.
had fun wif zr and hl. and company.
its indeed comforting to haf ur beside mi.
before we went clarke quay hl and i were gluttonly feasting on one big big tub of green tea icecream.
we finished the whole tub.
and one tub equals abt 5000kj..
and dunnoe how mani grams of fat.
but still we happily ignored it and enjoyed our ice cream..while sitting on the stairs in esplanade.
talking rubbish.
"violently" hitting hl cos she alwaes saes stuff to disturb mi.
stupid. but yet sweet.
haha..crabbit xoxo. =D
my first dae in 2008 seems full of shocks n surprises.
going downtown east tmr.
theres an aching feeling inside.
happie new years loves.
thank u for walking wif mi thru 2007.
hope it'll still carry on in 2008..
then 2009..2010.......
lovelove.
---3:42 AM---
