kk..i shall stop complaining abt work for once..but..im reali so so tireds..until i feel lyk im not myself..lyk i dun noe wat im doing..jus working and working..and its oni tuesdae morning..sigh..zr saes i shd celebrate at the end of e month..cos it marks my one month at work..haha..guess she's right..a lazy person lyk mi..can act work for one month alreadi(by tis fridae)..is reali amazing..tis calls for celebration!! haha..though im so so tempted to take leave tmr..reali nid a good zzZ..shall see how..
feel guilty alwaes when i complain..cos..my job isnt exactly the worse..its hard..but not bad..my job..is to fini everything given to mi by tat dae..haha..my heart sinks so badly whenever i see a big stack coming again..but zr's worse..cos she haf to meet a sale target..which act stresses her alot..and ns is even tougher..shd be glad we dun nid to traine everydae..will jus faint under the sun..imagine 2.4 everydae..haha..but hl's job sounds the slackest..sometimes can even watch video..i haf to be so careful when typing tis in office..in case i get caught..but zr's job is ending soon..and she's going to do admin too..hmm..haha..2 more months plus to end of contract!
realised i haf been frantically shopping every weekend for 4 weeks..shopping is the best way to relieve stress..cos u see n buy the things u lyk..and u'll feel happier..but tis cant continue..feel the pinch now..cant go broke even before working and recieving my pay..haha..feel abit guilty tat zr uses her free daes to exercise..but i use it to go out eat wif family..and shopping..though zr saes i haf tat belly dance..but its oni one h per week..haha..the instructor saes we shd practise at home..tried too..but theres hardly anytime..but now whenever im standing up and free..feel tempted to twist my hips..haha..exercise abit..though i doubt it reali burns any calories..its act reali quite hard to do it as well as the instructor..her hips and waist are lyk so flexible..haha..belly dancing is good for flexibility..kk...it better works..by the end of 3 months..shall try hard..
realised my entries are increasing so much in length..hafing more n more things to crab each dae..but reali..feel so grateful by the small visits and smses..it makes a normal dreadful dae so much better..time seems to fly so much faster..compared to e normal crawling rate..
had a wierd dream yest..dreamt of my boss..( the one in charged of mi)..and dreamt of 2b gals..haha..suddenly zr inspired mi to read..mayb i shd buy the (how to charm others) book..it seems so interesting..it states tat smooth curls are flirtish n attractive..hmm..curls are reali sexy..if u do it correctly..lyk by a salon..haha..not by yourself..shall try again on ch newyr..my daddy gaf mi 100 dollars! to buy new yr clothes..since i haf alreadi bought mine..tinking of either saving it up..or investing in cosmetics..but its such an expensive investment..haha..shall see how..
enough vaining..shall stop and read blogs..lyk reading blogs..but nowadaes..everyone is so caught up wif their work n haf no time to blog..end up reading stories online..haha..prepared for a heavy workload again later..tataz..=)
---8:27 AM---
its thu morning todae..tis week has been so busy n tiring..too mani cases..yest i was helping my colleague pick up calls cos he was on mc..and there were lyk 5 complains at diff places..and its oni one person..imagine how mani calls are there in total to all my colleagues..sigh..cases are increasing too badly..terrible workload..its so so much compared to previous weeks..and the reason is act becos of the recent issue of banning smoking in few public areas..so more n more pple cant stand smoking so they kip complaining..sigh..pple call the police and the police call us..tink 3 of the calls were from police..but luckily they din sound fierce of anything..but of cos..cos we are supposed to be the good pple..as in help them catch those offenders..but seriously..sigh..will the offenders ever learn..how can $30 fine make them learn their lesson..but after 3 offences..they will be prosecuted and go court..sigh..they are oni so young..less than 18..maybe hl is rite..we are helping them..but does it reali works..but thru tis..i reali see the love of parents for their children..they call to ask abt the offences everything for their children..and some over protective parents even call to defend their children..try to fight back and stop them from being charged..its hard to be a parent reali..so..guess i shd luv my parents even more more..after all these years trying to bring mi up..haha..=)
haha..such a long part on quite irrelevant things..hmm..nth much these daes..jus work n work..cy came to visit mi on wed..and brought my fav omelette from nj..touched cos it was reali a long journey..haha..second visitor who brought mi food..tat time zr came wif omelette too..hahax..happie n touched for the effort..haha..to cheer mi up..cos they noe im alwaes so bored n tireds at office..and of cos it did help..time seems to fly faster after lunch..my colleagues sae i haf such nice frens to bring mi food n accompany mi..haha..of cos..thank you reali..it brightens up my dae alot alot..=D
zr BLOG! last time u used to blog alot..now the entries are lyk so short n few..im so bored at office..i nid distraction..nowadaes i lyk blog more than u lehs..haha..noe ur busy..n of cos even more tireds due to the long hours of promoting..but can try to blog on ur off daes marx..instead of going all the way to parkway parade..stay at home to blog is better..or u can go bouna vista..the journey is much much shorter..hahax..=P
looking forward to fridae desperately..reali nid tat long sleep..nowadaes..once i reach the bed at nite..i'll jus fall zzZ immediately..then before i noe it..my mum is forcing mi out of the bed..doesnt feel lyk i zzZ much at all..sleep deprived..and by the time i reach thu esp fridae..will be so so tireds..it jus accumulates..but nah..2 more daes..half the battle won alreadi..haha..todae nid to go submit my time sheet all the way at raffles place..tink tis month i oni work 3 weeks in total..cos started late..and i took a dae off..now feel the pain of taking off..cos it means $40 less..haha..lyk one dae worth of pay lesser..so its not 800 anymore..it becomes 700 plus..but nah..nid a break sometimes too..so..will try not to take so mani leaves..
toking abt fridae..last fridae went out wif hl for awhile..less than 2h..and she was so so evil..i was lyk abit happie cos i felt tat i haf slim down abit..then when she came..and we were trying on clothes at lemon..( leMoN wor..does tis sound familiar..stop ur rapid heartbeat..hahax..=PP)..she act said i lyk become fatter..the worse worse thing to sae to a gal is tat she has become fatter..so i refused to eat..then told her if i faint its her fault..hahax..no la..act in the end i was quite hungry so i even ate a big piece of bread..but she was so evil k..to sae tat..then i purposely put mascara tat dae..cos fridae..end of the week..good mood..then i asked her happily if she can see it..then she sae..u got put mehs..i was so so frustrated..beating her everywhere..hahaX..then she sae..if can tell means ur skill is not good..so its better tat i cant tell..more natural..tis was such a crab reason..but act quite true..wahas..=P (dun even tink u read my blog lohs..busy playing ms..) but..tink applied too little..and dun reali noe how to apply..haha..zr saes her skill is so so good now such tat her eyelashes look so thick n long..shall learn and see for myself one dae..haha..all the talk abt makeup..but i haven even started yet..mayb tis cyn..will try abit..but haf to spend so much..lyk zr..she spent 100..shall see..invest in the dance first..
haha..kk..a new eye candy from my office..but not my department..he's good looking reali..dun tink hl or zr will doubt..but he reminds mi of watch..its lyk similar..act can compare lehs..his features are pretty..haha..but it'll be a 2 week eye candy..not fair..his is 1 month contract mine is 3 months..the agent bluff mi..but..chance to earn more..so will continue..haf 2 months n 2 weeks more to go..haha..dun noe wat job i'll take later..but def not admin..haha..
its still more than 2h to lunch..wan to go orchard on fridae to buy accessories making stuff..hope it goes well..haha..off to work again..yea..7 daes later is pay dae..tataz..=)
*n i tink i look pretty in the morn..dunno y..though im half asleep..mayb its tat tinge of blurness..hahax..kk..shall stop being bhb..off to work..*
---8:23 AM---
precious sat n sun is gone once again..time reali reali flies..but oni on sat n sun..during weekdaes..it seems to crawl slowly n slowly..and its mondae again..usual mon blues..haha..i refuse to wakeup..mum has to drag mi out of the bed..and its reali reali drag..haha..let mi describe how she does tat..she'll first call..then i refuse to wakeup..she'll push mi..but i'll still refuse to wakeup..then she'll snatch away my doggy..i'll grumble and mutter loudly..but i'll still continue to sleep..hugging my bolster..and she'll snatch away the bloster..it jus goes on and on..until theres no choice..ans she's abt to shout..or sometimes she has alreadi started shouting..then i'll wakeup reluctantly..hahax..but when im reali reali tireds..i'll wakeup and continue sleeping on my parents's bed..haha..yups..its so bad..so tiring..mayb its jus laziness..refusing to get out of my comfortable bed..but..no choice..tis will at least haf to continue for 5daes..before reaching sat..when at least i nid not wakeup at 6am..
and..im going to learn belly dancing!! hahax..surprisingly..shocking..hl saes im going to gif up due to tiredness..but nah..its oni one h..and time reali flies there..haha..the dance moves are aquite tough..to be able to it as well as the instructor is almost impossible..she's so so sexy..hahax..she has a tatoo at the back..hahax..slightly above the pants..cant blame mi for noticing..cos haf to kip staring at her back and waist..to follow the steps..she's reali flexible..can jus shake and twist her body easily..and she's pretty..lyk her features..haha..hmm..the dance moves are quite sexy act..its a mixture of aerobics and dance..i was act crabbing when i said i wanted to learn belly dancing..cos its lyk the best way to slim down at the waist part..and to tink tat i reali got it..hahax..so funnie..but..im going to master the steps..its lyk abit arabian..it reminds abit of indian dance though..haha..aim..to practise whenever im free..to slim down..and to dance as sexily and professionally..haha..and some of the students there( act most of them are older than mi)..haf tis belly..or hip wrap..tat makes alot of noise when u shake..its lyk bell sounds..they sae its so tat u noe whether u did the steps correctly by hearing the sounds it makes..hmm..wonder where they get it..but dun tink will get it anytime soon..haha..master abit first..feel abit of accomplishment..lyk im learning something new..haha..wait till i earn abit more money..wan to pick up cooking and baking classes..but haf to reali go and find le..haha..=)
reading mani mani blogs recently..no choice..the emails cy and hl sends mi are not enough to cure my boredom..but i noe..the workload todae is going to be veri veri high..k..another 3 stacks jus came..thought i jus fini one..off to work first..to be continued...
jus back from lunch..my colleagues brought mi to holland V..at the market area..and i saw a nice dress..black wif white poka dots..sweet n simple..but..no time to look at it..hahax..and quite broke now..tink its becos i went out on sat n sun..bought a blue crocodile shirt for my dad at bugis..and hmm..tink shd buy for my mum next time..cos bought twice for my dad le..hahax..and the food at holland V market is so so so much nicer than the food court at my office..
when ur doing work alone..u tend to tink alot alot..cos ur doing and doing..but the job is quite standard..so u'll get bored..so i'll tink alot..haha..random tots again..tat appear and go again..realised i expect alot out of myself..a perfectionist..in some areas..haha..and im easily jealous..sometimes its reali oni stupid small things..haha..
met my gp tuition yest..S.qin cher sher n yawen..ate kenny rogers..the evil waiter din allow us to order kids meal..cos we knew we cant fini..in the end..we ordered 3 sets to be shared among 5 pple..then still cant fini..hahax..its quite a big portion..din lyk the chicken..it reali din taste nice..mashed potato was nice..but the muffin was still the best..sweet..haha..then we were lyk forcing each other to eat..then cher was feeding everyone..she looked motherly..hahax..took alot of pic..2 of them rebonded and one permed..haha..make mi so tempted to rebond again..i tink im going to..maybe after new year..cos tot of perming myself on newyear for fun..so..sigh...see how..nowadaes realibusy wif work..and now tat sat is occupied by dance( can use the gym there too)..i noe..go for dance lesson..then shop to reward myself for losing some calories..haha..yups..we went ard marina square to shop awhile after lunch..saw mani beautiful clothes and accessories..haha..but we din buy..cos it was reali ex..the pretty necklace we lyked was at $50 from topshop..i bought a 3/4 jeans and top from u2..simple casual wear..but the top can be worn to office..wahas..v shaped top still looks the nicest on mi..in all..the outing was reali nice..lots of fun and laughter..did silly stupid things..but yups..guessed we all enjoyed ourselves..memorable dae..haha..=)
and yes..saw alot of blogs..see pple selling things they make online..lyk customised pouch..bags..accessories..shoes..it made mi so tempted..cos i wan to do tat too! hahax..it has been so long since i made any accessories..wan to try making..lyk when im free at nite after work or during weekends..suddenly haf tis lyking for long necklace..those tat has silver or golden chains..slim ones..but at the botton its lyk mani patterns and designs..eg a big pendant..but i lyk the ones wif mani small pendants at the bottom..lyk made up of crystal pearls etc..saw alot at marina square and bugis..but they sell it so ex..so was tinking..it'll be so nice if i can make it myself..lyk choose wat i wan..but the starting materials will be quite ex and hard to find..but..will try making one and see how it goes..my grandma is reali veri good in making accessories..esp those wif crystals..hmm..will ask her to teach mi..haha..so..hopefully..i can succeed..
haf to go le..sigh..another 2 reali big stacks come again..tis time is updating anf FiLING..hope to fini fast..seeya..
---8:27 AM---
suddenly..i feel so bad mood..feel irritated impatient attitude and angry..sigh..bad mood swing...
---10:15 AM---
saw tis reali cute qn quiz when i was looking thru blogs..ahmm..can take a try..see wat's my ideal bf..hahax..(;
~dReaM gUy~
1. hair colour: brown or black?
2. eye colour: black..hahax..though tink blue eyes are so pretty..but tat'll be eurasians rites..
3. skin tone: dark
4. long or short hair: short
5. piercings: nO
6. scars: everyone has scars..hahax..
7. big butt or little: where got guys got big butts de..
8. straight: obviously..to lyk mi rites..haha..
9. outgoing or shy: mixture?
10. sarcastic or sincere: sincere of cos..
11. shld he have a best fren?: haha..yups..
12. shld he love her mom: of cos..
13. shld he watch girl movies: nah..bt it'll be sweet to accompany mi once in a while..haha..
14. be sweet: of cos..
15. be smart: hahax..everyone is smart in their own ways..haha..but yups..
16. be funny: haha..yups..humorous..
17. smoker?: nO..working in tobacco regulation unit..my workload..hahax..
18. drink: haha..almost everyone drinks..as long its not alot alot..
19. play wif ur hair: haha..hl shd noe the ans..tink its veri sweet..
20. kiss on the first date?: depends on the place n mood..
21. bring u gift?: haha..who doesnt lyk prez..something simple but sweet..
22. lay under the stars wif u: haha..aStRO!! hahax..of cos..at nj grandstand rites..*winks to roo*
23. write poetry abt ya: sounds too chengwei..haha..
24. call u darling, sweetie or baby: *winks to roo again for a diff reason..hahaX..* darling is sweet..
25. hang out wif u n ur frens: haha..once in awhile?
26. hold ur hand: haha..of cos..*winks at roo the hardest..=PP*
27. sing to u: haha..jay songs!
28. u wld like his interest to be: anything as long as he reali lyks it..
29. play guitar or piano: guitar..haha..sweeter..but zr will sae piano..luv 200 wors..haha..then hl will sae none..can choose ms instead..hahaX..=PP apple saes soccer rites..last time..haha..
30. one last condition: can be greedy abit..dotes on mi..haha..=)
tis is so crab..but since im abit free so..haha..dun mind doing..was reading hl's mail..and i saw a reali quite accurate personality test..hahax..but its so long..so i paste oni part of it k..blahs..its oni wed todae..still half a week more to go..looking forward to weekends..haha..and my pay..its supposed to arrive tis week..~off to work...
*i lyk the top i wore todae to work..hahax..its nice! ^-^
Does your name begin with: AU are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action.You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get.You have no patience for flirting and can't be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front person. You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is! intellectually stimulating, otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you. You tend to be very Practical, & not very emotional Your choices are very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied & egoistic.
Does your name begin with: FYou are idealistic and romantic, putting your lover on a pedestal. You look for the very best mate you can find. You are a flirt, yet once committed, you are very loyal. You are sensuous and privately passionate. Publicly, you can be showy, extravagant, and gallant. You are a born romantic. Dramatic love scenes are a favourite fantasy past time. You can be a very generous lover.
Does your name begin with: G
You are fastidious, seeking perfection within yourself and your lover. You respond to a lover who is yourintellectual equal or superior, and one who can enhance your status. You are sensuous and know how to reach the peak of stimulation, because you work at it meticulously. You can be extremely active-never tiring out. Your duties and responsibilities take precedence over everything else. You may have difficulty getting emotionally close to people. ___________________________________________________________
Does your name begin with: H
You seek a mate who can enhance your zest for life ,fun & everything You seek for. You will be very generous to your lover once you have Attained a commitment. You are very affectionate & very strong. Your gifts are actually an investment in your partner. Before the commitment, though, you tend to be very careful with your every move and equally cautious in your involvement's often as you believe that you have to look out for yourself. You are a sensual and patient lover. You will hold off till everything meets your full approval. You are a perfectionist, hard to satisfy and strong in your beliefs. Not influential, you always stand your ground. People can always count on you to stand by them in a crisis. You are a dreamer with/ a passion for life.
Does your name begin with: SFor you, it is pleasure before business. You can be romantically idealistic to a fault and is capable of much sensuality. But you never loose control of your emotions. Once you make the commitment you stick like glue. You could get jealous and possessive. You tend to be very selfish often regarding yourself as the only human being on the planet.. You like being the centre of attention. You are very caring sensitive, private & sometimes very passive. Turned on by soft lights, romantic thoughts. When it gets down to the nitty-gritty, you are an expert. You know all the little tricks of the trade, can play any role, or any game, and take your love life very seriously. You don't fool around. You have the patience to wait for the rightperson to come along. You are very generous & giving, often selfless. You are kind nature & sweet which is found to be attractive by many. You are a good friend.
Does your name begin with: ZYou are very romantic but show feels that to love means to suffer. You wind up serving your mate & attracting people who have unusual trouble. You see yourself as a lover's saviour.
*~sorrie apple..forgot green apple's name starts wif wat..hahaX..=PP u tell mi i send to u k..(:
---2:37 PM---
finally realised tat blogging makes time fly..cos yest i blogged at work when theres nth to do..and before i knew it..it was close to lunch..but todae..time is passing by so so slowly..y is it oni 10am now..fini the work assigned till now..n congrats to myself..i jus fini another box of 1000letters..again..but my boss said yest tat theres another box of 1000..it jus goes on..but nah..jus handpain..hahax..and get ink all over my hand..but quite used to it..haha..i feel so wierd at work..cos its lyk..i muz be so careful of footsteps..n turn cautiously every now n then..to spot my boss..it'll be quite terrible if i get caught rites..haha..it feels lyk im guilty n doing something wrong..hmm..considered quite wrong..haha..blogging at work..now i understand..y so mani pple blog when they are at work..cos they are bored lyk mi..
im so sleepy..reali..cant stop yawning..veri veri tireds..i hate the routine..everydae sleeping at earliest 12 plus..but sometimes latest at 1 plus (cos bathe late n my hair doesnt dry)..then waking up at 6..then go to work..its repeating n repeating..then i do the same things over n over again everydae in office..but im not reali complaining (haha..yes i am)..cos its quite free nowadaes..as in..not as busy..and i find it abit more manageable..cos im more familiar..not learning so much new things..n i haf free time sometimes when i fini my work fast..lyk now..then can slack abit..
its abit funnie..cos everyone looks so busy..i do my work..then i haf to pass it to them..then they haf to do something..then pass it back to mi..it goes on n on..so if they cant fini their part..they cant pass it to mi..dun noe y they are taking so long..mayb cos there are some serious cases..
hmm..wat do i do normally when im free..hahax..sUrF nET!! go to mani mani blogs..and intersting websites..lyk dresses..hairdo..makeup etc..and of cos..read emails..haha..fini my mails..then i'll go hl's yahoo mail..cos she has mani mani emails over the years stored in her yahoo mail..(jus back from doing some work)..blahs blahs..haha..random..y is every post abt work..hahax..cant help it..cos its lyk occupying the biggest part of my life now..
toking abt blogs..read alot..
*off to work..a thick stack jus arrived..update later..haha..i wan lunch..
---10:05 AM---
it has been quite a few daes since i last blogged..haha..sometimes theres reali so much to blog abt..but when i face the screen..suddenly im loss for words..haha..so it depends in mood i guess..
hmm..its mondae again..MONDAE..dun lyk mondaes..mondae blues..haha..its becos mon n tue..n fridae..theres alwaes alot of work..the middle of the week is better..esp mondae..haha..but i tink im so efficient..kk..bhb..but..hahax..i noe how to do things assigned to mi by my boss le..wifout referring to the instruction sheet..
act i haf lyk a boss..who is the officer who's incharged of mi..but she's not e highest..she's jus a normal officer..the highest is the head of my unit..tobacco regulation unit..haha..before i start ranting abt the clothes i bought over the weekend..lets fini tis part abt work first..went imm on sundae..then while eating in fish n co..i saw 3 underaged boys smoking..! haha..my theory of the more underaged pple smoking..the more work i haf to do..but its reali..not alwaes pple who smoke will get caught..cos act..there are mani cases which are not discovered..reali dun noe how the police officers go ard catching these underaged smokers..but..there are still mani cases which are not caught..but tis reali not good to get caught..cos there will be a record stated lyk for life..so..dun smoke..haha..reali..sometimes i haf to compile articles on smoking tobacco products etc..the pictures are reali scary..so..dun smoke!! haha..though i noe the pple ard mi wont smoke..perhaps its not right to sterotype n sae tat smokers are bad..cos i rem years ago..while i was doing flag dae..there was tis smoker..adult..who gaf mi a few dollars for donation..how rarely do pple gif a few dollars for flag dae..so..haha..was abit touched..but the effects of smoking is still bad..not oni to e person..but second hand is worse..dun noe y such a long part abt smoking..but i'll nv ever marry a smoker..cos it'll affect the children too rites..since young..
haha..i miss foster..i miss wh..another one or two weeks later to foster..going to buy mani tibits for the children..cos we can oni buy food for them..it has been months..haha..
act i was tinking..y dun i work in foster..as in..in mcyc..but..dun tink they hire us cos they nid to go for training..but..i reali reali wont mind if they are willing to hire mi and the pay is low..cos the job satisfaction will be so high..time flies at mcyc..or foster..
toking abt job...hmm..guess im adapting to work pretty well..jus tat..i reali reali reali dislyk filing..anything but filing..its hard to find one file out of 200 files..and dig out or file in one document..but..haf to do tis mani times everydae..but the rest of the work is fine..
hmm..was tinking..when i grow up..wat do i wan to be..haf been tinking n tinking..but cant find any ans..when i was young..i wanted to be a teacher or doctor..but doctor now is totally impossible basing on my results n i tink i reali dun haf the courage to face all the blood n pain..wont even dare to inject someone..wat is its painful for the person..teacher..wanted to be a teacher too..but my view changed ever since i entered nj..cos when i look at the teachers..lyk mr ng..mr lim..i noe tat they reali dunlyk their job..they dread it..perhaps its veri hard dealing wif students nowadaes..wat if i dun teach well..and affect the results of the students..rem when i was young..at the childcare..after psle..was veri free..so went back to teach lower primary..rem i lyked it veri much..haha..but..the passion seems to be gone after mani years..but if i teach..i'll definitely wan lower pri..but my mum saes they are veri naughty and i'll haf a hard time controlling them judging from my personality..haha..but they are def cuter rites..
job satisfaction vs pay..which one would u choose..when i came into health sc authority..i kind of dislyk office work..cos the pple here are doing the same thing everydae over n over again..no doubt the pay is high..but would u find satisfaction compounding cases..calling to remind them to pay find..sending them to court..but in the real world..who act chooses job satisfaction over pay..who said money wasnt impo..y am i working now..besides of the experience..cos i learnt to see the outside world better..its becos of the pay..wat kips mi moving on..its not becos i lyk to type remind letters everydae..post letters everydae..compound info everydae..etc..its becos i nid the money..i wan to buy things home for my family..i wan to reduce the burden on my parents..i wan to buy things i lyk..its realistic isnt it..but i dunwan..i dunwan to be stuck in a job i dunlyk..dunwan to wake up every morning..tinking oh no..its work again lyk now..i wan to wakeup looking forward to my job..but its true isnt it..its almost impossible to find a job which u lyk and its reward in terms of the pay..
but i learnt something..its impo reali..to pursue something u lyk..so tat u'll haf the heart n energyto do it..find a job in an area u are interested in..then u'll be happier..but wat abt the money issue..haha..best way..be a tai tai rites..but nah..its unfair rites..if ur husband haf to work so so hard outside n u cant share the burden..although i tink i wont reali mind shopping n taking care of children everydae..but..after some time..u'll start to tink..is it the life u wan..so how..haha..since my interest is in shopping..clothes n accessories..mayb i'll earn enough money in some job..then open a botique..selling things i make? or things i lyk..haha..tats a dream i tink..but shall see in future..
but working has def tot mi mani things..lyk learning how to appreciate small things..haha..lyk next time when i recieve a mail..i can appreciate it better..hahax..cos mayb theres a temp staff lyk mi..who spent time organising..stamping..folding..packing..though its jus a simple letter..it oso taught mi other things of cos..cant see any office politics..but my colleague beside mi saes its act going on..but i cant tell anything at all..cos it wont involve mi at all..cos im jus a temp staff..who's leaving in3mths..sigh..one week has jus passed oni..but zr told mi tat theres act alot of politics going on..and she has to be ruthless to fight for sales to meet the number assigned for her..guess although my workload is high..pple gif u lots of work..but at least i wont nid to face all tis..haha..my colleague saes im still jus a child..haha..perhaps..but reali wont wan to face all tis when i grow up..its so terrible..lyk wat zr saes..to wear a mask at work..years ago..my dad was working in tis company..food n beverage company..he was an accountants manager then..life was much much better i guess..compared to now..where there are quarrels lyk weekly over money in my house..the bills expenditure everything..my dad then said something which is not good abt his boss to his colleague..someone who was under him..n tis person act told the boss..n my dad was retrenched during a retenchment..its so horrible n scary..when someone u act trust betrays u..its so evil..i guess when u grow up..u haf to learnt how to protect urself..against others..who may manipulate u..its so scary..tat its act a lifeskill..sigh..a veri negative side of office work..but its inevitable..it happends everywhere..no matter which company u are in..so..haha..guess its better zr is starting to learn some now rites..
read someone's blog..yups..lyk to read blogs in my free time at work..cos i haf a com infront of mi..its stated tat 96% of the population who is able to work is act working..so..wahas..darling whose MSing her whole life away..u are so so rare..cos ur part of the 4%..=Pp hahax..but she saes she's going to work in her uncle's dvd shop in lyk 2 weeks time..and the pay is higher than mine..1000 plus..mine is oni 800 a month..haha..so work hard wors..but..wahas..no more ms for u..hahax..=p
apple i miss u so badly..the last time i saw u was lyk prom..so it has been 1 month n lyk 2 weeks..dun reali see u online too..cos we are so tireds after work..hahax..n apple busy watching hk shows rites..haha..one fridae..we muz muz find one fridae after work..cos it'll be weekends n no work the next dae..to go out..n haf a good good chat abt life n of cos work..haha..wan to noe abt ur work..cos we are both doing admin..so apple...soon..soon arhx..=)
ever since work started..realise im getting more n more busy..so tireds after a whole dae at work..jus wan to rest when i reach home..though its lyk oni one week since i met zr when she sent sch food to mi on her off dae..sweet..^-^ haha..but theres still so much i wan to sae..to catch up..n even longer lyk 3 weeks since i saw hl..the long calls are becoming rare cos theres no time..alwaes so tireds..haha..so so so much things to sae..conclusion..zr n i concluded tat school life is so much better..earning money is so hard..at least we end earlier during school daes..and the sky wont be dark by the time we reach home..i miss the grandstand badly..the daes when we stayed back after school n jus sit n tok in the grandstand..or munch on snacks in the canteen..those were e daes..of cos..2005 n 2006 haf so much memories..n i'll nv forget the daes..haha..good n bad daes..but in the end..we tide thru it..so..haha..accomplishment rites..i miss your..badly..haha..(:
tis is such a long entry..quite long compared to others..theres so much more things i wan to sae..haha..but jus no time..toking abt shopping..wahas..=D i bought..2 dresses over the weekends..one which looks quite childish..haha..simple n sweet looking..a purple n white dress..lyk it veir much..it looks nice wif rebonded hair..but the zip is spoil..quite spoilt..it wasnt sewn properly..my mum scolded mi of cos..for buying a spoilt dress..but since it looks nice on mi..n i can fit in..i bought it..but reali quite hard to wear n takeoff..nid my mum..hahax..yups..jus lyk the prom dress..but tat din dress din even haf a zip at all..but abit surprised..cos im lyk the first who can fit into the dress..the salesgal said quite a no cant fit in becos of the spoilt zip..wahas..does it means im slim..=Pp then another dress..a pretty pretty dress i bought at imm..it was on sale..its navy green..halter dress..hahax..but i lyk the bottom part..n the top part..cos its abit revealing..but not veri revealing..adds a tinge of sexiness..hahax..my mum made noise abt tat part though..but if she dun allow..jus haf to wear a tube inside..haha..my mum forbids mi to wear the dresses first..she saes leave it for newyear..cos new year muz wear new clothes..
haha..n i bought a sweater..nah..is my dad bought for mi..a super super thick sweater..from samuel n kevin..i tink its act the same one zr bought on new years eve..jus tat her's is blue n mine is purple..its veri big..lyk big sweaters cos its more comfortable..cos its so so cold in my office..the aircon is blasting..the whitte knitted sweater i bought at subway is not enough to fight e cold..so my dad bought another one for mi..haha..=) hmm..maybe becos of the heavy rain nowadaes..i feel so so cold everydae..even wif a sweater at home..i still feel veri cold..haha..end up hugging my mum..n when i sleep..i nid lyk 2 blankets..my mum saes im becoming weaker..mayb due to e lack of sleep..or wierd diet..but i tink my diet is perfectly fine..eating more n more nowadaes..cos im starting to feel hungry..guilty..guess i reali reali haf to go exercising soon..yes..exercising..either by going some classes..or try abit of gym..hahax..but haf to go on weekends..my precious oni 2 daes per week..it means haf to sacrifice shopping..n going out wif my family..hmm..haf to see how..muz plan n arrange well i guess...
finally realised im a perfectionist..hahax..not in my work..but i expect alot alot out of myself..physically n of cos my character tinking etc..mayb one dae..i shall learnt to accept tat nothing is ever prefect..but meanwhile..haha..im still aiming for perfection..cos i noe theres still alot to be changed..its not up there yet..
of cos..theres still alot of random tots which i wan to blog abt..haha..but dun tink i haf enough time..shall leave it to next time..but haha..tis is a long entry..mondae todae..theres still tue wed thu fri..counting down..to my free n more relaxed weekends..=>
---10:28 AM---
haha..dun noe y feel lyk blogging again..second post of the dae..i noe..cos i wan to sae..i wan to cut my fringe..i wan i wan..suddenly lyk realise..i haf been fringeless for veri long..ever since the retarded fringe..haha..though a few pple lyk my mum act said it was nice..hahax..funnie..but..yups..i wan to cut my fringe..but impossible..cos haf to work everydae..and its a bit stupid..to pay so so much jus to cut fringe..so..let mi rant abit..cut cut cut...
hahax..yea..my mum let mi go for rebonding again..it has been lyk a year since i last rebond..so..yups..shall rebond it again to make it straighter..luv the first few weeks after u rebond..cos ur hair will be so so manageable..so soft n smooth..hahax..so i can cut my fringe by then..haf tis prettyl image of myself in newly rebonded hair..and nice fringe!! wahas..yups..pretty..=P but then..from then onwards..no more trying to curl my hair myself..or the 200 plus dollars for rebonding will be wasted..mayb shall go curl again one last time before rebonding..dun tink curling reali suits mi..cos messy..but i lyk e curling effect..it makes u look womanly..hahax..curls are sexy..wahs..quite a long post abt my hair..going for lunch soon at 1am..and yea..i managed to get leave for fridae..yea yea..so happie..hahax..nid a break..i wan to zzZ..hahax..hungry..lunchtime..=D
---12:47 PM---
slacking abit from work again..now abit of free time..but when it's busy..its reali busy..but..i'll hang on..haha..dunwan disappoint pple who believe i can do it..hahax..jiayoux jiayoux..its so tiring reali..when everydae after a dae of work..when u go home..its alreadi so late..the sky is dark..then u'll find tat the remaining time is so little..then before u noe it..u'll haf to wake up at 6am again..haha..veri tireds..reali wan to sleep..haha..it has been quite long since i last slept enough..miss the feeling of sleeping at3am..then waking up at3pm..haha..yups..its a bit lyk pig..but..its so enjoyable..miss tis so much..sigh..i wan to play..i wan to slack..i jus wan to play..dun noe play wat..but..jus wan to relax..hahax..i wan to play wif the children at foster..run play catching..throw balls..but whenever i tink of play..it reminds mi of..hahax..xueyi they all..cos they are so playful..we are kind of a batch tat nv grows up..haha..but she's at vivo working now at diaso..but at least she gets lyk 750 on weekends..but nah..wont wan to sacrifice my weekends..they are precious..haha..can relax..
reali wan to rant n rant abt my work..but nah..after complaining n complaining to hl..i tink its okay le..oie..stop playing ms..go work..hahax..then u'll understand how i feel le..haha..but reminded of something tat chengwei told mi before..u'll nv understand..cos ur not mi..true i guess..its oni when u go thru it tat u undergo itself..tat u reali feel it..haha..so..i learnt something..now i noe y he quitted his job..but..nah..i still haf 3 more months..haha..even zr ed faster than mi..hers is feb..mine is april le..but..i can do it!!
haha..decided le..next time when i cant take it..shall cum blog to rant..and whine..*wHiNeS...*
haha..tat stack of work has arrived again..tataz..
saw tis on email..haha..hl's email act..
~when do u noe when ur missing someone..
it is when u start tinking of tat person..tat ur missing someone..~
---9:30 AM---
good morning!! its so so early in the morning..reached office at 750..when my work oni start at 830..hahax..first few to cum..but..my boss cum le..but cos my working hrs haven offically start..so still quite free..jus tat..i haf 1000 letters to chop..act wat do i do..everything i tink..hahax..admin assistant..so its jus everything tat doesnt reali nid to use the brain..lyk..filing..typing..data entry..arrange info..search for info..checking..stamping..folding..packing..arranging..carrying..everything..hahax..i tink its worth it lahs..to hire oni one temp staff lyk mi..who does everything..but was telling hl n zr..haha..one thing i lyk is..u get ur own access card..dun noe lehs..the feeling of hafing ur own card to tap in n out of the office n building is so nice..hahax..sounds abit stupid..then hl n zr both gif the same rxn..nj dun haf arhx..haha..alwaes go into nj haf to tap card too..but tats diff marx..without a card u can still enter nj..as long as u wear ur uni..but tis is diff..hahax..got the working feel..mayb cos tat time go citibank they haven gif mi any card yet..kk..got to go..lots of work to do..to be continued...
---8:29 AM---
i haf my own com..cos the oni thing i can do..is use the internet when im free..finally abit free now..alot of work to do..sleepy..hahax..but my boss is nice..she teaches mi patiently..haven scolded mi yet..its so so big here..tis is a big government organisation..hahax..but i dun haf any phone at my desk..cant listen to music oso..hahax..but someone near mi is using the radio..so im listening too..haha..but tmr muz climb ladder..my boss sae muz shift all the files..i realised something..every admin job nids filing..but seriously dun lyk filing..dun noe y my mum lyks mi to do admin work..hahax..but not bad..its jus relatively manageable things..typing..pasting..folding..filing..packing..data entry..blah blah..im the youngest person here again..but the oni best thing is..i haf my own desk..they are quite sweet act..they reserve a seat for temp staff..which is where im sitting now..kk..tats almost all..the piles of work are coming again..tireds..looking forward to end of work..im so so relieved tmr is fridae..not tuesdae..2 more hours..i wan to go home..
---3:58 PM---
act wanted to blog on 1/1/07..but suddenly..there was so mani things i wanted to sae..tat i was overwhelmed..cant decide wat to write..so quickly..one yr has passed by..and its 2007..one year..jus lyk tis..hahax..seems lyk we are getting older..now 19..next time..we'll reach 21..and start to grow old..no wonder my mum alwaes sae once you reach 18..every year will pass by veri quickly..before u noe it..you'll be old n haggard..hahax..old age..nah..its not on my worry list now..cos..we are still young..still sweet 18..haha..
2006..a reali eventful year..things which i noe i'll nv forget..i lost some things..but i gained some back too..thank you..to my darlings..who pulled mi back..who held on to mi all the way..can nv express my gratitude enough..so mani experiences..jc life..is reali e 2 years i learnt alot..from the small gal..to grown up lyk mi..hahax..learnt alot..experienced things i din noe i will ever face..fell down..but climbed up again..thank you reali..my world is complete now..becos of you..sounds lyk a luv note wor..hahax..thank you..=)
wishes for 2007? alot alot..hahax..but to summarise it..i cant be greedy..to wish for pretty dresses anymore..or for pretty hair..makeup..cos all these wishes are so insignificant..compared to alot of other pple..who are struggling to survive..so..i oni wish..tat pple ard mo..my family and frens..will be blessed and happie everydae..reali..wat beats happiness..haha..and..less of those accidents and terrorists attacks everydae..its sad reali..to see the news reporting how mani pple act lose their lives due to such incidents..it made mi realise how much fortunate i am..so..yups..though its hard..world peace..(:
*thank you for all you haf given mi..you haf given mi much..so much more than i can gif..perhaps..i will nv ever find someone who understands mi as much..haf been tinking and tinking..but i hope you understand..watever decision made..it is for the best..i rather u be angry and upset now..to dislyk mi now..then to be hurt next time..i dun believe in eternity anymore..cos i noe its too hard..dun put mi too high up k..its not worth it..haha..i noe wat ur going to sae..but nah..its my blog..you cant argue..=P take cares k..hope everything will be fine for you in ns..n eh..hope the toilet auntie is pretty..stall vendor is pretty..hahax..*hugs* (=
found tis song..lyk it veri much..its act from a tv serial..haha..miss you finally by trademark..and..starting work tmr..at health science authority..haha..zr jus called mi to sae she's starting work too..but at jurong point watsons..she's selling loreal products..haha..hmm..still tinking of wat to wear tmr..mayb i'll look lyk a professional..or mayb office gal rites..muz hang on even if the work is tough...hang on fiona..you can do it..! haha..all the best roo..jiayoux..^-^
~Trademark - Miss You Finally ~
But I miss you finally But I miss you finally Try to remember all these years We shared the love we shared the tears Thought that forever it would be I realize you lie to me I still hold on Still dream of days when we were one
You played with my heart You played with my mind But I miss you finally Right from the start My love made me blind But I miss you finally All of these promises you made This 4 letter word it seems to... Baby it's hard to understand Now that you're gone We reached the end I still believe Still dream of days when we were one
You played with my heart You played with my mind Right from the start My love made me blind
---12:52 AM---
