they got they finger on the trigger
hand on the nines
---5:41 AM---
i stared at this page for so long
cos
theres so much i want to say
but i cant
i always claim that i have become independent
cos i do not rely on anyone to accompany me emotionally anymore
someone told me..is it hl or alex i forgot
that just becos i keep all my thoughts to myself
doesnt mean im mature
but doesnt it show that im trying to overcome every difficulty i face myself
deosnt it show independence
when was the last time i grabbed someone to blabber my troubles
i cant really remember
i thought i found a confidante i could tell the deepest things i do not dare to say to anyone else
i thought there was understanding
but now i realise i thought too much
some things
they cant last
though i always say that im tireds of losing so much each day
i guess the losses nv ends
but the gains nv ends too
this time
i really tried
but i couldnt make it
but still i keep the promise
i'll try my best to start to lead a better life for myself
lovesd.
---5:08 AM---
Relying heavily on aspirin masks now
please please work your magic :(
---5:02 AM---
Bahhh
I had a simple fattening but yummy contented dinner wif rose just now
At mac
<3 their ice lemon tea
Extra large yes (:
Bought yanyan chocolate n strawberry dip biscuit sticks
N white chocolate
All to ease my cravings
N an attempt to take the worries away
My mummy makes double boiled soup for my six and I everyday
To strengthen the eyes, the body, to remove fatique, build stronger bones, remove eyebags, stronger hair etc etc even for ahmm bigger b**bs
I think tts more for my younger sis cos shes only 18 and there's still a few years to grow while I'm already 21 years n 9 days old
*pouts* :((
But I feel overnourished with all these tonics
Hopefully they work
And perhaps I can grow those 2cm to my desired 1.6m height :(
Time for bed
Nites loves. :)
---5:00 AM---
Zhuo ren yao nar de qi fang de xia
---3:21 AM---
Labels: randoms
i cant help but feel alittle disappointed
silly me
im surprised how gorgeous these inspired bags look
http://lolitasweet.livejournal.com/7269.html
http://lolitasweet.livejournal.com/21301.html
theres really so little difference between the real and not
and i think malay is harder than french
wails
cos french has less than 20 pgs to study
while malay has 100
im going to s/u malay def
mac big breakfast mac big breakfast mac big breakfast
i miss it so much
goodnites loves. (:
---12:34 AM---
With didi at nanyang audi now
Waiting for Malay at 130
I tink playing the guitar n singing is so sweet :)
Loves.
---1:15 PM---
I just saw 3 lizards together in the living room
Was so scared I rushed into my room
Im hiding in my bed now
please dun crawl into my room
:"""(
---3:31 AM---
I'm on my bed already
But I'm so hungry..
craving for ban mian from far east plaza
:(
---5:17 AM---
Labels: hearts
aww
sipping my fav hot green tea
im so in the mood to blog tonite
loves (:
i had a open heart to heart talk with they who cant be named for some reason
which soon your will know, today
it was comforting to know each of us had our insecurities
and we will overcome them one day
we must always remember
in our pursue of perfection
no one is perfect
there is some point at which we should stop
though guilty-ily
i must say i have always made this mistake
and i bought a pouch bag today!
dark purple
just a normal one from those normal cart shop
me like (:
and i love my rapidly increasing collection of soft toys overcrowding my bed
i have hello kitty, pooh bear, melody, chipmunk, mickey minnie mouse, and a cute hamster soft toy
and of cos
my most loved maomao and bunny. muacks.
i spend almost every minute in my house hugging them
and im determined to do some amazing cake baking for my darling jiji
and once again
thank u darlings
for ur wishes on my birthday
i really felt loved.
i think im rather happy now.
loveloves.
---4:06 AM---
Labels: tots
i dread doing the numerical and reasoning test so much
and i muz finish it by tonight
and im so tireds i feel like sleeping now
its like
i know i cant get in anw
sigh.
many things for this weekend
but i cant wait for the happier parts
i watched my sister's keeper just now
i cried 3 times
the movie was so real
it covered family and love
we shd really treasure whatever we have
cos we nv know when are we going to lose them
my greatest wish is for my family and friends to be safe and sound
thats all.
---12:13 AM---
i like this
officially missing you.
---2:53 AM---
Labels: birthday
this yr's bday
my 21st
was simple yet amazingly heartwarming
made me feel so touched and loved
thank u so much
and im so going to meet my darlings who i haven seen for so long very very soon
loves
---1:37 AM---
Labels: 21
5 and a half hours left to adulthood
=(
---6:12 PM---
I eat the most sinful things on earth
---2:37 PM---
i wan to say alot of thingsin detailbut i need to keep positivemy loves celebrated my bday with me todayit was a night ofhigh. low. high.mimi says i need to grow upi haf been trying hard to grow upbut secretlyi dun wish to grow upi wan to take a shortcuti hope that someone will keep me lyk thisungrown grow up for melet me stay this waythough ur dun read thisbut thank u for the nighti act teared in the middle of steamboata call broke my hearttears suppressed so longfinally cametheres too many things i dun understandi cant believei dun accepti keep going through them over and over againbut i cant pinpoint the faultmaybe its time for me to realise that its no one's faultit just became like thisi love my non vigorous and safe night of celebrationhahaas compared to didi's laand doug the luckiest guy on earth for being our guardian angelheres a candid picturei heart these pplei feel shy saying mushy stuffsmimi act filmed ithahathe only thing i can say isafter 2.5 yearsi still think your are the best thing that happened to me in ntu.u.u.u.u.and.me<3
i dun wanna try no more.
---4:34 AM---
Labels: ="(
uberly mind saturated
and im nt even near the end
i need the strongest willpower
---1:14 AM---
no wonder i nv knew my eyecandies =((
---5:00 AM---
serendipity
i cant wait for saturday to come
loves.
---1:05 AM---
Labels: career
though how hard it may be
i know that one day each of us will definitely find our dream job
with whatever it takes.
Have you ever had a dream that seemed so real that when you woke up you didn't know what to believe? What would you do if what you thought was true wasn't? And what you thought wasn't true, was? Would you return to your dreams in hope of finding a more perfect reality?
by http://runawaytrain.tumblr.com
---11:32 PM---
hopeless
theres no chance of me making it there
i always say acceptance is important
but there are some things i tried so hard to make them work
tried to make them better
but so what
it doesnt work.
i grew
i changed
i try to overlook
to forgive to forget
but so what
one day
everything wont matter anymore
and im telling myself
i wont look back
ever
---9:57 PM---
Labels: facial
honey aspirin mask is magic
---6:41 PM---
It's 630am
And I just woke up from sleeping on e sofa for 6h
Todays big 4 session was crowded
Interactive
And I realized
How bleak is my future
I think it looks
Black.
---6:29 AM---
Labels: songs. thoughts. school.
i think katy perry is pretty amazing
her songs are special and good
and i realised she is actually very pretty too
<3 her songs
"thinking of you" is one of the bests
it seems lyk oct is nt a good month
my bday is coming in less than 2 weeks
but yet
so many things to complete before my bday
and a few days later quizzes again
hopefully i finish them
and my bday will be a happy one without worries
and today i was at cotton on
looking through the accessories
then when i was at the counter
there was this bright orange pink pouch bag
and the grp of girls behind me immediately exclaimed
this is so boomzz
then they started hi 5-ing
its lyk so funny i was secretly laughing
since tmr's bio lect is at 2pm
may i get a proper long sleep tonight
loveloves
---2:10 AM---
Labels: school. tests.
304 over
left with 306
304 was quite dead
basically i was skimming through
and acl was rubbish
and i tink 306 will be totally worse
zero
its not that i do not believe in love at first sight
it's just that i do not believe it will happen to me
---4:59 PM---
too many things undone
---1:36 AM---
Labels: a sweet website
http://blogsecret.tumblr.com/
this is so sweet and touching
and its sent by real life people
aww!
loves!
updates.
i feel secret number 11174.
---3:02 AM---
I'm on e bed already
Ready to sleep
Missed blogging
Nowadays for some reason I keep falling asleep
Sleeping has become a leisure
A happy thing
Sidetracking
Though kayne west is really bad to Taylor swift
I think his songs are so good
I like every single song
I think he is really a very good rnb singer
I still <3 rnb the most
Getting too tireds
With my comfy pillow bolsters and soft toys
Nitenites :)
---4:41 AM---
