Labels: to be looked after
i think im one of the few
who kept a blog for so long
hl's blog is dead
ahmm!!
update soon la okay?(:
gosh
the fray
look after you
is such a good song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1iYOOuJLuaY&feature=PlayList&p=D18FD0EB121F803A&playnext=1&playnext_from=PL&index=37
i feel so many emotions after listening to it
haha
you know
somehow
i still dun feel like im 21 already
i still cant believe im 21
it's like
i thought i should be _,_,_ etc when im 21
but im not
i do not know if i can accomplish my dreams
its pretty much like i have given them up already
when we grow up
we ought to know
some things are meant to remain as dreams
and not reality
i feel like crying listening to the song
i want to do myself proud
do my parents proud
do you and you and you proud
for so many years
i felt this inner pressure
to prove myself
cos i didnt want to let the pple who doted on me
who see me as useless
i wanted myself to be worth it
everytime i went out
i'll make sure
i'm dolled up nicely
but there are some times
when i looked into the mirror
and felt angry at myself
why am i not perfect enough
the hair the face everything
and i grow so mad at myself
but recently
for the past few months
i gave up on myself
i just wanted to dress up in something i feel comfortable in
i didnt care abt anything else
i didnt care what people think
i didnt care abt anything at all
but deep down inside
it is really a different story
sometimes i wonder by typing everything here
will i seem like im too emotional and thinking too much
somehow i always feel that showing my emotions are a sign of weakness
goodnites
loves.
---3:13 AM---
