Labels: self confidence.
im so eager to go to the hair salon tmr morning at 1030..
i feel lyk changing my hairstyle abit..
will snip off my fringe def..change parting etc..
*prays tt the hairdresser will do a good job..
i reli feel so guilty for not maintaining myself ever since uni started..
haf been reli lazy cos too caught up wif work..
all the gluttonings..
sometimes im even too lazy to condition my hair cos reli tireds..jus wan to fini bathing..and zzZ..
and i dun use masks..rarely makeup etc..
a lazy gal = aint no way a pretty gal..
sigh..
guilty guilty..
used to be more vain in sec or jc sch..
or even more confident act..
though looking back..i tink i was so chui..
but fiona is a weird gal..( wq yj more weird..esp wq..wahahhas..=dd)
i haf lyk 0 self confidence..
reli 0..
i'll alwaes ask hl..am i okay..
if oni im prettier..if oni tis is better etc..
i simply dun believe in myself.
maybe it sounds reli bimbotic.
but i tink tis 0 trust in myself makes mi so insecure..
i feel so inferior.
cos i feel tat im not nice enough.
last time i used to tink..
im not compatible wif..cos im not good enough..
its my fault..cos i shd be better..
im not pretty etc.
even till now..im feeling the exact same way..
i jus aint good enough.
i dunnoe when will i start loving myself..feeling confident of myself..
maybe one dae.
i'll meet someone who reli can gif mi the assurance i nid.
i reli nid the self confidence.
hl saes it was jus a game and it has ended.
was it.
goodnites loves. C:
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