Labels: frustrations.
fiona was in extreme bad mood todae.
so much to be done for jus one project.
keep redoing n redoing. but still its not good enough.
phone is dead. all the numbers saved in the phone gone. msges gone.
upset.
im so tireds.
bt yet everynite. something jus keeps mi going.
i can lyk sleep at 3am,4am.
but yet. the next dae. the lack of sleep feels so horrible.
i wonder wats wrong wif mi.
i can be reli happie one nite. then become so upset the next morning.
argued wif hl for awhile.
cos she made mi wait so long for her. lyk 2.5h.
and her phone was off. no signal.
no calls. no sms.
im reli someone who hates waiting.
but if its for someone i heart. i will do it.
jus tat it made mi reli bad tempered.
sometimes i tink im odd. weird.
im uber nice to pple. who doesnt treat mi as nice.
i tink hl and i. alot of efforts were spent cos we are pple from 2 diff worlds. diff thinkings. diff interests. diff characters. diff loves.
it reli took us veri long. to be where we are now.
but sometimes. i hope she hearts mi as much as i do.
perhaps she does. it jus tat. she nv shows it.
was kind of arguing wif her jus now.
it's a priority list.
fiona's priority list.
1) family
2) close frens. loved ones. def chow hl.
3) studies.
hl's priority list.
1) family
2) studies
3) other random stuffs lyk tuition and staying in sch for i dunnoe wat reasons.
4) fiona
etc etc
but 5 years, of cos i haf accepted it. and im perfectly fine. jus tt todae was a bad day for mi.
and we are still the bestest ever.
and i still love u lyk nobody's business.
but tis reminded mi of something else. something unrelated.
i reli hate myself for alwaes giving in.
such tat i lose myself.
i can nv bear to be angry wif someone i heart no matter wat happens.
thus i reli rarely lose my temper at someone no matter how angry i am.
but i may jus whine abit longer on the phone wif hl. haha..
thank u xy for the short chat last nite outside mac westmall..finally someone who can see y..haha..
enough of the whinings..
its time to noe wat shd be done..
i reli reli lyk xy's entries. it so so good. i tink i can nv write something lyk tt..haha..
agapeo?
unconditional?
too hard.
maybe one day.
my project is incomplete again.
im reli so frustrated.
wat can i do. never ending.
sigh..
ps.
but still..thank u for yest. loves. (:
will blog it when my mood is sweeter..haha..
off to bathe..goodnites =D
xoxo.
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