i stared at this page for so long
cos
theres so much i want to say
but i cant
i always claim that i have become independent
cos i do not rely on anyone to accompany me emotionally anymore
someone told me..is it hl or alex i forgot
that just becos i keep all my thoughts to myself
doesnt mean im mature
but doesnt it show that im trying to overcome every difficulty i face myself
deosnt it show independence
when was the last time i grabbed someone to blabber my troubles
i cant really remember
i thought i found a confidante i could tell the deepest things i do not dare to say to anyone else
i thought there was understanding
but now i realise i thought too much
some things
they cant last
though i always say that im tireds of losing so much each day
i guess the losses nv ends
but the gains nv ends too
this time
i really tried
but i couldnt make it
but still i keep the promise
i'll try my best to start to lead a better life for myself
lovesd.
---5:08 AM---
