Labels: tots. blogging in office.
i tink.
i haf aged alot.
or perhaps.
matured seems to be a better word.
i haf grown to nt oni think for myself.
but even much much more for others.
and most importantly.
not for my present.
but for my future.
yes.
future again.
is it oni me.
or perhaps.
tis is veri common.
jus tt maybe im too early.
or maybe even too late.
getting more and more tireds.
wif work.
but i reli lyk my job.
lyk my boss.
and wif mani other things.
lyk registration of subjects for next sem.
all those planning.
there seems to be a whole list of things to be done.
but yet.
becos im lazy to think thru and pen each and every down.
i constantly find myself forgetting one or two.
but yet bad habits stay.
they nv change.
tireds physically.
tireds mentally.
but yet.
tis is wat i haf chosen.
i haf let myself be tireds.
why is it tt time seems to fly.
it seems lyk ages.
since i last properly sat down to watch tv.
everydae seems lyk a routine.
work.
go out.
rest.
work again.
and the cycle repeats.
and weekends seem to fly past.
as in reli fly.
before i noe it.
its mon again.
the tot of hafing tis life.
after 2 yrs.
every single dae.
repeating without fail.
is scary.
it has oni been 3 weeks since work started.
and work isnt tt intensive.
except tt i kip on wondering every min y is there a discrepancy in the figures.
and slowly reduce the difference.
but yet it can nv get to zero.
i see the accountants work so hard.
i see their excels.
their spreadsheets.
the things they do.
its reli reli horribly complex.
tt hafing studied accts for 1 yr.
i can barely understand them.
it makes my work. seems so minor.
so so so badly simple.
tt i even feel guilty.
but.
it makes me wonder.
can i reli cope wif such a life lyk them when i grow up.
i oni haf 2 years.
to adapt myself to such a life.
a full time working life.
but i know tt whether i lyk it or not.
or even if i dread it.
when i grow up.
tis will be a major part of my life.
and i will work hard for it.
haha..tis isnt suppose to be sad or anything.
jus some fleeting tots.
and i haf fallen sick.
flu sorethroat headache and slight fever.
but im reli unwilling to take mc.
cos i need to take leave next week for my subjects registration.
hopefully i'll recover real soon.
despite many setbacks.
despite the tiredness.
despite going back over and over again.
despite all those painful falls.
happiness comes in the simplest way.
fiona is happy?
but i feel as if
im losing myself.
bit by bit.
love.
---12:25 PM---
