Labels: unhappiness
i haf alwaes believed
but yet again and again
i haf been let down
and then i disillusioned myself again
into beliving once more
and sadly
the cycle repeats and repeats
and repeats
some things cant be changed
some things cant be avoided
some things cant be pretended and taken as non existent
i find myself falling and falling
then picking up myself
and telling myself i'll nv make the same mistake again
telling myself i'll learn
but yet after a short while find myself falling yet back into the same pithole.
pain after pain
scars after scars
but wait
isnt all tis expected
isnt all tis wat i shd alreadi noe will come one day
but yet
i tricked myself into believing tt all tis wont come
jus lyk praying for something not to come when u know it definitely will one day.
and when it finally appears infront myself
its the cold hard truth.
and im reli losing myself too much.
jus 2 days ago.
i looked into the mirror
and saw an unfamiliar face
i was so ugly that i couldnt even recognise myself
all the neglects i took becos i overlooked myself.
wheres the confidence?
wheres the shine?
wheres the beauty i once at least held proud?
all faded.
tat was when i realise
tis cannot go on.
but i forgot again,
forgot all abt my lessons learnt forgot my resolutions
until today
until jus now, 2hrs ago.
i wan to go back
i need to go back
i need to regain it all.
cannot afford to remain in tis state.
i reli need to find myself back
before its too late
paste these pieces and bits together again
but those broken lines will always remain
ur will help me
will ur.
---3:59 PM---
