Labels: pain
haven been blogging for some time.
i guess no one else except myself. understand anything for these past few daes.
all these crap.
all these trauma.
pple may tink i haf alot.
but no one noes wat i haf is wat i haf been closely guarded and treasured for so long. even years,
until i cant imagine.
wat will happen to my world.
if i ever lose someone i hold dear.
im so sick and tireds of being selfless.
acting selfless.
pretending tt i can be selfless without any tinge of sadness.
but i cant anymore.
all i wanted was tt little bit for myself.
can i be selfish for once.
can i tink for myself for once.
can i not give in.
and i jus take.
for once.
tis is all i wanted.
tt little bit.
y did it become so hard.
is tis all.
i feel so weak.
i cant let these tears flow anymore.
im becoming so used to wat has been given to me.
im so afraid.
so scared tt they will be gone one dae.
can u. u. u. u.
these few closest i hold so close to my heart.
stay by me.
y does it feel lyk suddenly.
in the deepest part of myself.
its surrounded by walls and walls.
im left all alone.
all i ever wanted.
was tis simple.
but y does it seem so faraway.
---2:00 AM---
