Labels: emo. random. tots. girls. hl.
will update tonite. (:
i reli cant wait to go to the chinatown kbox again..
updates.
its late at nite now..sipping my cup of hot jasmine green tea. i feel at peace. happy? haha..
so mani events haf happened recently..the past few weeks..
not to me act..but the pple ard me..
it has been reli quite long since i blogged properly..suddenly im at loss for words.
realised blogging is lyk a habit..the more frequent u blog..the more inclined u'll wan to blog..and it carries on..
all the events though nt directly concerning me evoked mani strong tots and emotions in me..reli.
is it a sign of maturity or y is it tt i find myself changing my tinkings..
to the more pessimistic side i muz sae..
maybe as we grow up..we see more and experience more and realised what we act believed were act childish tinkings..
tts y pple change..tts y our tots change.
sadly. everything is reality.
and we haf to accept reality.
the truth?
the cold truth hurts act reli.
it goes back down to the most basic level. the trust.
i tink one of the saddest things tt can happen is the violation of the trust,
maybe tts y my girls xy mel haf been saying..we reli shdnt trust so easily. to protect ourselves, to prevent ourselves from getting hurt.
it irks me to the core to see history repeating itself to so mani of the pple i love most.
set aside all those excuses.
they are nt the least bit real.
if u love someone.
u can NEVER bear to hurt them.
regardless of all those wat unforseen circumstances.
regardless of becos of tis becos of tt there was no choice etc.
regardless of no hafing a better way out becos of the situation.
we noe its all lies.
but. we choose to believe them.
its stupid.
but.
it seems lyk a kinder way out.
wat else can we do except to make ourselves feel better by still believing them?
it all shows how fragile r/s are act.
so fragile its scary.
wat happened to those happy moments shared.
those probs overcome together.
all discarded. all thrown away. all forgotten.
in e end. it all again boils down to the person's personality and values.
if he/she tinks wat he does is acceptable though its way wrong. then tts becos his/her character can condone such an action.
but then. wat happens.
if the silliest thing one can do. is to even afford to overlook such flaw in the person. and still like him/her the same.
do we call tt selfless or silliness.
it all depends.
but ultimately.
we make our own choice.
is it worth making the mistake.
its hard to weigh act.
either we bear the pain of withdrawing.
or the pain of falling hard and recover slowly bit by bit.
i tink most will choose the second option.
me too.
extreme silliness yes. extreme stupidity yes.
but if u tink its worth the pain and sacrifice. if u tink its wat u wan. if u tink tts the path u wan to choose. if u can bear the consequences tt follow.
then jus go. jus go.
watever happens.
we alwaes haf out closest sweetest frens supporting us till e end.
u fall deep deep.
we hold u up strong strong.
but i can nv understand y.
why some pple can reli bear to do cruel stuffs.
maybe they dun know.
or they do but yet choose to ignore.
for their own selfish purposes.
its sad.
but tis is life isnt it.
but why...
being a bitbit biased here.
but guys reli shdnt break a girl's heart.
cos they'll reli take ages to recover.
once they lyk a guy. they reli reli do.
girls are meant to be loved. to be pampered. to be taken care of.
so guys, ( though i tink almost all of ur reading are girls..haha..but still..)
love ur girls.
humans alwaes make tis mistake.
of treasuring something oni after losing them.
its the loss tat make them realise how they cant live without.
but yet.
most of the time.
its jus too late.
so treasure.
hold them tight.
haha..apologetic for the strong emotions though im perfectly fine cos no worries..nth much happen to me recently..(:
jus alot of stuffs tat i saw..
i used to believe in happy ever after.
tis fairytale bubble which i hold dear. which i fiercely guarded.
but yet.
it seems lyk my bubble is bursting.
unhappy emo stuffs aside.
realised i spent an h on all tis cos my tots are all jumbled up..haha..
missing my girls VERI BADLY.
wanting the late long nite chats together.
wanting kbox.
wanting the shopping.
wanting just a pure gathering together.
i haf so mani updates i wan to hear from ur.
so mani things to sae.
looking forward.
and its the first month of hl and my 2 daes back.......
hmm...=p
thank u babe for alwaes..haha..
feeling random.
so cheers to our 5th yr 4 months and 17 daes.
we were a miracle yes.
and u noe even if the big big clouds fall down..i'll still support u..u'll still support me..
strongest love ever.
lyk my blog song..haha..i alwaes lyk my blog songs..but its precisely i lyk them tts y they are on my blog..=d
its let me love you by mario..
hmm..
simple lyrics but catchy song.
let me be your selection.
goodnites loves.
fiona has the sweetest frens ard her.
xoxo.
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