Labels: failed 2 acct exams.
i failed both of my exams.
20%.
the highest weightage for all my midterms.
i reli couldnt believe when i saw my failed score for the first exam.
for the second exam.
i totally cant do the excel spreadsheet cos i din study tt part.
tis is the first time in my whole life i act did so badly.
total failure.
when i left the exam hall tears reli whelmed in my eyes.
i feel so horribly guilty.
all tis is all my fault.
all my fault.
for the past few weeks.
i haf neglected my studies.
i haf totally took it out from my priority list.
tinking tt it will work out in the end.
but it din.
it cant.
i feel so upset,
but where are my rights to be sad when i din put in all my effort at all.
i feel so guilty.
its reli all my fault.
i ignored all the warnings.
i dwelled in things i shdnt dwell.
y cant i knock some sense into my brain.
tt it was a clear cut.
no strings attached.
i forgot abt my studies.
and immersed myself into such lies and deception.
i can oni blame myself.
its oni myself.
tis is such a painful price to pay.
im sorry.
i feel lyk i haf let down esp my mummy.
she din even reprimanded me.
she jus told me its over. and pay back by working harder.
and those who encouraged me all the way.
and my gals.
ur haf tried hard to cheer me up.
for the past 2 weeks.
i felt lyk i haf lost everything.
lost every bit of my glamour.
every bit of my pride. my confidence.
every bit of everything i could be proud or happy of.
all these while.
i haf hidden everything from zr.
( sorry zr..but i noe u dun reli read my blog often..i'll clear everything when finals are over k..)
cos zr has alwaes been my guide. guideline.
i feel lyk i cannt disappoint her.
i cannot do things which are so badly wrong.
esp when i noe its a grave mistake in the first place.
dun worry roo.
im still the same.
if not.
growing even stronger.
if u ever read tis.
i miss u sweet.
i noe u'll work hard and continue to do well.
jiayous in fulfiling ur dream.
love.
i shd haf prioritise my study much higher.
i feel lyk my life is so utterly screwed up.
and it was ME who made it so.
no one else.
tis will be the last time i'll ever tink.
last time i'll allow myself to be reduced to such state.
last time i'll let myself to be so horribly pathetic.
thanku for all the support ur haf reli given me.
i'll hold on to them tightly.(:
i promise.
tis will be the last time.
i'll work hard from now onwards.
everything else.
it reli doesnt matter anymore.
ps.
sorry for the reli sad entry again.
sigh..20% 20%.
im such a stupid gal.
if tis goes on.
my blog will be saddest blog ever.
but i wont let it become so.
so i'll jiayous and be happy k.
thanku to all my sweets for reading my blog.
for accompanying me through my happiest and saddest moments.
i'll pick up the broken pieces and stand up tall tall again.
thanku.
fiona loves u.
time for a good rest maybe.
2h of sleep yest nite.
xoxo.
---12:58 PM---
