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open house has been so tiring..honestly..i cant reali decide btw nus n ntu..cos i lyk nus environment..but ntu business seems more specialised..and they cater to your nids better..
i noe its so not ambitious to jus wan an office job..i do wan medicine too..i lyk science..and medicine is a specialisation..and theres tremendous satisfaction when u manage to help someone..i would tink its the most rewarding job present..
but practicality? its so terribly hard to enter inside..and how do u compete wif the cohord..the so mani pple who wans medicine..yes..i wan to be a doctor..since young? cos i was sickly..and reali wanted to help those who are lyk mi..down wif asthma everything..but i was so small then..i din noe abt all these criterias..all the quiz..tests..interviews..testimonials..i miss being small..when u tot tat as long as you love it..as long as u wan it..ur get it..
but reality isnt lyk tis..
can i make it..u muz noe where u stand..how to compare wif all those..who get straight A's but cant enter..spore is realistic..wat do they look at..yes character is impo def..ur passion..ur attitude is impo..of cos all these counts..but basically..wat is the fundamental criteria..its ur results..its so cruel reali..but is there a choice..if results were not tat impo..every helpful person wif a passion for med would haf gotten it..how do they sieve thru these candidates..
i would tink tat its not reali the passion alone or the results alone is impo..its reali the combination of both..yes..they muz be near perfect..they wan the best of both worlds..its not their fault..they haf to ensure tat the students selected are able to cope under the high pressure..its reali a challenging and demanding course..they haf to be stringent..
i guess im weak..im noe i cant take the pressure if i take med..when the pple around you are most probably the top ten percent or even better of the cohord..i haf to admit..im not strong enough..
it would haf been so much nicer..if we can reali choose wat we wan..let our interest govern us..instead of all those horrible admission criterias..all the stress that comes wif it..but theres no choice..we haf to pay a price..no matter how small it is..for wat we wan..wat we desire..
back to office work..i noe no one understands y i jus wan an office job..and no one is lyk mi..i believe no one is as stupid as mi..especially though i dun lyk the 8 to 6 admin job im doing now..cos i find tat i haf too little time..find it terribly hard to wakeup at 6 everydae..
but..which job is not from 8 to 6..which permanent job allows u to work oni for a few hours instead of the whole dae..even engineering..science..teacher..research..u haf to work the whole dae..theres reali no job tat doesnt require to wake up early..end late..u haf to devote ur time to working no matter wat u do..so i guess i can oni accept it..and devote myself to my job in future..
but y an office job (i tink i wan banking)..frankly..firstly..cos i tink its a natural path for most gals..secondly..cos im influenced by most pple..lyk my colleagues..i find their job acceptable act..and i can tell tat they dun mind their job..some of them even lyk it..and im reali starting to lyk tis idea of working infront of the com..(minus the veri high workload..though its inevitable..and every job will def be busy)..its standard but reali rewarding when u complete everything..the right way..=)
thirdly..cos i lyk the idea of dressing up nicely or neatly wif your fav clothes to go for work..and after work ends..u can go out..or go home..sorry..i noe it reali sounds bimbotic and shallow..but i jus wan a more comfortable job wif no sweat or sun..and aircon..
and oso becos im not reali ambitious..i dunwan a job to dominate the rest of my life..i dunwan to be a career woman..i jus wan a stable job tats sufficient to support my family..haf a husband who loves mi alot and cute adorable children..a 8 - 6 job so tat at least i haf time to spare for my children..jus lyk my colleague..whos'a happily married wif a child..by the age of 27..tis is wat i would tink is happiness..and tis is the normal life i wan..
wish list?
get married by 25-26
haf children by 27-28
yups..jus lyk my parents..C:
i tink its abit stupid..but family def comes before career..theres no point being highly paid wif a good career but end up missing the most fundamental point..which is the love..after working..i reali understand y guys lyk their wives to cook..cos when i reach home after a long tiring dae at work..i oni wish to see a sumptuous meal infront of mi..and eat together wif my family..so i'll get moody if the food is bad or slip short..(:
i hope i wont regret watever decision i'll make soon..(cos i realised i get swayed easily..reali veri easily) i hope wat i tink now will still apply years later..n not tink..i shd haf tried tis..shd haf taken tis instead..its a huge decision..which involves the outcome of the rest of my life..theres no room for mistakes..
* thank u gals for waiting despite my mani questions..the patience..and all the whining when i was carrying the heavy bags..thanku..C:
love.
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