it has been quite a few daes since i last blogged..haha..sometimes theres reali so much to blog abt..but when i face the screen..suddenly im loss for words..haha..so it depends in mood i guess..
hmm..its mondae again..MONDAE..dun lyk mondaes..mondae blues..haha..its becos mon n tue..n fridae..theres alwaes alot of work..the middle of the week is better..esp mondae..haha..but i tink im so efficient..kk..bhb..but..hahax..i noe how to do things assigned to mi by my boss le..wifout referring to the instruction sheet..
act i haf lyk a boss..who is the officer who's incharged of mi..but she's not e highest..she's jus a normal officer..the highest is the head of my unit..tobacco regulation unit..haha..before i start ranting abt the clothes i bought over the weekend..lets fini tis part abt work first..went imm on sundae..then while eating in fish n co..i saw 3 underaged boys smoking..! haha..my theory of the more underaged pple smoking..the more work i haf to do..but its reali..not alwaes pple who smoke will get caught..cos act..there are mani cases which are not discovered..reali dun noe how the police officers go ard catching these underaged smokers..but..there are still mani cases which are not caught..but tis reali not good to get caught..cos there will be a record stated lyk for life..so..dun smoke..haha..reali..sometimes i haf to compile articles on smoking tobacco products etc..the pictures are reali scary..so..dun smoke!! haha..though i noe the pple ard mi wont smoke..perhaps its not right to sterotype n sae tat smokers are bad..cos i rem years ago..while i was doing flag dae..there was tis smoker..adult..who gaf mi a few dollars for donation..how rarely do pple gif a few dollars for flag dae..so..haha..was abit touched..but the effects of smoking is still bad..not oni to e person..but second hand is worse..dun noe y such a long part abt smoking..but i'll nv ever marry a smoker..cos it'll affect the children too rites..since young..
haha..i miss foster..i miss wh..another one or two weeks later to foster..going to buy mani tibits for the children..cos we can oni buy food for them..it has been months..haha..
act i was tinking..y dun i work in foster..as in..in mcyc..but..dun tink they hire us cos they nid to go for training..but..i reali reali wont mind if they are willing to hire mi and the pay is low..cos the job satisfaction will be so high..time flies at mcyc..or foster..
toking abt job...hmm..guess im adapting to work pretty well..jus tat..i reali reali reali dislyk filing..anything but filing..its hard to find one file out of 200 files..and dig out or file in one document..but..haf to do tis mani times everydae..but the rest of the work is fine..
hmm..was tinking..when i grow up..wat do i wan to be..haf been tinking n tinking..but cant find any ans..when i was young..i wanted to be a teacher or doctor..but doctor now is totally impossible basing on my results n i tink i reali dun haf the courage to face all the blood n pain..wont even dare to inject someone..wat is its painful for the person..teacher..wanted to be a teacher too..but my view changed ever since i entered nj..cos when i look at the teachers..lyk mr ng..mr lim..i noe tat they reali dunlyk their job..they dread it..perhaps its veri hard dealing wif students nowadaes..wat if i dun teach well..and affect the results of the students..rem when i was young..at the childcare..after psle..was veri free..so went back to teach lower primary..rem i lyked it veri much..haha..but..the passion seems to be gone after mani years..but if i teach..i'll definitely wan lower pri..but my mum saes they are veri naughty and i'll haf a hard time controlling them judging from my personality..haha..but they are def cuter rites..
job satisfaction vs pay..which one would u choose..when i came into health sc authority..i kind of dislyk office work..cos the pple here are doing the same thing everydae over n over again..no doubt the pay is high..but would u find satisfaction compounding cases..calling to remind them to pay find..sending them to court..but in the real world..who act chooses job satisfaction over pay..who said money wasnt impo..y am i working now..besides of the experience..cos i learnt to see the outside world better..its becos of the pay..wat kips mi moving on..its not becos i lyk to type remind letters everydae..post letters everydae..compound info everydae..etc..its becos i nid the money..i wan to buy things home for my family..i wan to reduce the burden on my parents..i wan to buy things i lyk..its realistic isnt it..but i dunwan..i dunwan to be stuck in a job i dunlyk..dunwan to wake up every morning..tinking oh no..its work again lyk now..i wan to wakeup looking forward to my job..but its true isnt it..its almost impossible to find a job which u lyk and its reward in terms of the pay..
but i learnt something..its impo reali..to pursue something u lyk..so tat u'll haf the heart n energyto do it..find a job in an area u are interested in..then u'll be happier..but wat abt the money issue..haha..best way..be a tai tai rites..but nah..its unfair rites..if ur husband haf to work so so hard outside n u cant share the burden..although i tink i wont reali mind shopping n taking care of children everydae..but..after some time..u'll start to tink..is it the life u wan..so how..haha..since my interest is in shopping..clothes n accessories..mayb i'll earn enough money in some job..then open a botique..selling things i make? or things i lyk..haha..tats a dream i tink..but shall see in future..
but working has def tot mi mani things..lyk learning how to appreciate small things..haha..lyk next time when i recieve a mail..i can appreciate it better..hahax..cos mayb theres a temp staff lyk mi..who spent time organising..stamping..folding..packing..though its jus a simple letter..it oso taught mi other things of cos..cant see any office politics..but my colleague beside mi saes its act going on..but i cant tell anything at all..cos it wont involve mi at all..cos im jus a temp staff..who's leaving in3mths..sigh..one week has jus passed oni..but zr told mi tat theres act alot of politics going on..and she has to be ruthless to fight for sales to meet the number assigned for her..guess although my workload is high..pple gif u lots of work..but at least i wont nid to face all tis..haha..my colleague saes im still jus a child..haha..perhaps..but reali wont wan to face all tis when i grow up..its so terrible..lyk wat zr saes..to wear a mask at work..years ago..my dad was working in tis company..food n beverage company..he was an accountants manager then..life was much much better i guess..compared to now..where there are quarrels lyk weekly over money in my house..the bills expenditure everything..my dad then said something which is not good abt his boss to his colleague..someone who was under him..n tis person act told the boss..n my dad was retrenched during a retenchment..its so horrible n scary..when someone u act trust betrays u..its so evil..i guess when u grow up..u haf to learnt how to protect urself..against others..who may manipulate u..its so scary..tat its act a lifeskill..sigh..a veri negative side of office work..but its inevitable..it happends everywhere..no matter which company u are in..so..haha..guess its better zr is starting to learn some now rites..
read someone's blog..yups..lyk to read blogs in my free time at work..cos i haf a com infront of mi..its stated tat 96% of the population who is able to work is act working..so..wahas..darling whose MSing her whole life away..u are so so rare..cos ur part of the 4%..=Pp hahax..but she saes she's going to work in her uncle's dvd shop in lyk 2 weeks time..and the pay is higher than mine..1000 plus..mine is oni 800 a month..haha..so work hard wors..but..wahas..no more ms for u..hahax..=p
apple i miss u so badly..the last time i saw u was lyk prom..so it has been 1 month n lyk 2 weeks..dun reali see u online too..cos we are so tireds after work..hahax..n apple busy watching hk shows rites..haha..one fridae..we muz muz find one fridae after work..cos it'll be weekends n no work the next dae..to go out..n haf a good good chat abt life n of cos work..haha..wan to noe abt ur work..cos we are both doing admin..so apple...soon..soon arhx..=)
ever since work started..realise im getting more n more busy..so tireds after a whole dae at work..jus wan to rest when i reach home..though its lyk oni one week since i met zr when she sent sch food to mi on her off dae..sweet..^-^ haha..but theres still so much i wan to sae..to catch up..n even longer lyk 3 weeks since i saw hl..the long calls are becoming rare cos theres no time..alwaes so tireds..haha..so so so much things to sae..conclusion..zr n i concluded tat school life is so much better..earning money is so hard..at least we end earlier during school daes..and the sky wont be dark by the time we reach home..i miss the grandstand badly..the daes when we stayed back after school n jus sit n tok in the grandstand..or munch on snacks in the canteen..those were e daes..of cos..2005 n 2006 haf so much memories..n i'll nv forget the daes..haha..good n bad daes..but in the end..we tide thru it..so..haha..accomplishment rites..i miss your..badly..haha..(:
tis is such a long entry..quite long compared to others..theres so much more things i wan to sae..haha..but jus no time..toking abt shopping..wahas..=D i bought..2 dresses over the weekends..one which looks quite childish..haha..simple n sweet looking..a purple n white dress..lyk it veir much..it looks nice wif rebonded hair..but the zip is spoil..quite spoilt..it wasnt sewn properly..my mum scolded mi of cos..for buying a spoilt dress..but since it looks nice on mi..n i can fit in..i bought it..but reali quite hard to wear n takeoff..nid my mum..hahax..yups..jus lyk the prom dress..but tat din dress din even haf a zip at all..but abit surprised..cos im lyk the first who can fit into the dress..the salesgal said quite a no cant fit in becos of the spoilt zip..wahas..does it means im slim..=Pp then another dress..a pretty pretty dress i bought at imm..it was on sale..its navy green..halter dress..hahax..but i lyk the bottom part..n the top part..cos its abit revealing..but not veri revealing..adds a tinge of sexiness..hahax..my mum made noise abt tat part though..but if she dun allow..jus haf to wear a tube inside..haha..my mum forbids mi to wear the dresses first..she saes leave it for newyear..cos new year muz wear new clothes..
haha..n i bought a sweater..nah..is my dad bought for mi..a super super thick sweater..from samuel n kevin..i tink its act the same one zr bought on new years eve..jus tat her's is blue n mine is purple..its veri big..lyk big sweaters cos its more comfortable..cos its so so cold in my office..the aircon is blasting..the whitte knitted sweater i bought at subway is not enough to fight e cold..so my dad bought another one for mi..haha..=) hmm..maybe becos of the heavy rain nowadaes..i feel so so cold everydae..even wif a sweater at home..i still feel veri cold..haha..end up hugging my mum..n when i sleep..i nid lyk 2 blankets..my mum saes im becoming weaker..mayb due to e lack of sleep..or wierd diet..but i tink my diet is perfectly fine..eating more n more nowadaes..cos im starting to feel hungry..guilty..guess i reali reali haf to go exercising soon..yes..exercising..either by going some classes..or try abit of gym..hahax..but haf to go on weekends..my precious oni 2 daes per week..it means haf to sacrifice shopping..n going out wif my family..hmm..haf to see how..muz plan n arrange well i guess...
finally realised im a perfectionist..hahax..not in my work..but i expect alot alot out of myself..physically n of cos my character tinking etc..mayb one dae..i shall learnt to accept tat nothing is ever prefect..but meanwhile..haha..im still aiming for perfection..cos i noe theres still alot to be changed..its not up there yet..
of cos..theres still alot of random tots which i wan to blog abt..haha..but dun tink i haf enough time..shall leave it to next time..but haha..tis is a long entry..mondae todae..theres still tue wed thu fri..counting down..to my free n more relaxed weekends..=>
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